today I will write/ anything in my imagination/ just to get myself/ out of this situation/ of being bored and upset/ there must be a way/ I haven't found it yet/ everything is not okay/ still I keep trying/ but good will not prevail/ everything I touch/ is just another way to fail/ so today I will write/ as if it will do any good/ some things never happen/ the way that they should/ but today I will write/ and maybe some miracle will occur
last night I felt the sting of white powder up my nose/ I woke this morning wearing yesterday's clothes/ I may smell like an ashtray of beer-soaked cigarettes/ but last night I found myself a chance to forget
last night was my birthday and I just turned seventeen/ you see my attitude in the holes of my jeans/ my mother doesn't say much/ my father's gone away/ and I could use some medicine to get me through today
I need to do this again/ I need to do this again/ I found me a new best friend
last night I had a good time/ a party all by myself/ it gave me permission to be somebody else/ it gave me permission to be a kid at play/ and I was not the failure you're looking at today
last night I could do anything/ anything I wanted/ I did not feel/ that this house was haunted/ I did not feel that the walls were closing in/ I felt a loser like myself could win
I need to do this again/ I need to do this again/ I found me a new best friend
last night I had a good time/ I want to feel it more/ I got some money from the 7-11 store/ here's your opportunity to whet my appetite/ do you have any more of what you had last night?
last night I felt the sting of white powder up my nose/ I woke this morning wearing yesterday's clothes
I did my duty/ but I wound up with shame/ and curse put upon/ my family name/ I tried to start over/ I failed but I tried/ I knew something bad/ was brewing inside/ so I escaped with my body/ and some peace of mind/ but whoever I am/ is someone you'll never find
one little move/ that's all I ask/ a tiny reward/ for every task/ I need to see that's something's working/ you can only go/ so far on faith/ after a while/ it just isn't safe/ everyday there's something hurting
show me that my hard work/ isn't all in vain/ there must be something in it for me/ everyday I try and try/ seems to be, no reason why/ it's all the same old story
one little move/ that's all I need/ on that point/ we are all agreed/ all the personalities inside me/ are sweating and straining/ to pull me through/ I can't figure out what to do/ I need to find somewhere to hide me
prove to me my hard work/ will actually have a purpose/ it's going to help me through somehow/ I take a look around me/ and everything makes me nervous/ I'm needing help right now
one little move/ that's all I want/ to help me move/ from back to front/ I need to see that I am trying/ one little move/ that I know is true/ pushing me along/ to do what I can do/ some place where there's no denying
one little move/ I need it today/ I need this need/ to go away I don't know what else to say/ but I'm gonna say it anyway/ I've got too much I have to prove/ all I need is one little move
one little move/ that's all I ask/ a tiny reward/ for every completed task/ I need to see that's something's working/ you can only go/ so far on faith/ after a while/ it just isn't safe/ everyday there's something hurting
show me that my hard work/ isn't all in vain/ there must be something in it for me/ everyday I try and try/ seems to be, no reason why/ it's all the same old story
one little move/ that's all I need/ on that point/ we are all agreed/ all the personalities inside me/ are sweating and straining/ to pull me through/ I can't figure out what to do/ there must be someplace new to hide me
prove to me my hard work/ will actually have a purpose/ it's going to help me through somehow/ I take a look around me/ and everything makes me nervous/ I'm needing help right about now
one little move/ that's all I want/ to help me move/ from back to front/ I need to see that I am trying/ one little move/ that I know is true/ pushing me along/ to do what I can do/ I want to see there's no denying/ that I have a reason to stop trying
one little move/ I need it today/ I need this need/ to go away I don't know what else to say/ but I'm gonna say it anyway
I'm not doing well today. Everything I do is a mistake. I'm bored and restless and I'm so tired of everything during this pandemic. All I want to do is eat bad food and read stupid stuff on the internet. Not that I'm eating food that's bad for you. I'm not. But I'm fuckin' hungry.
How can things get better, farmboy? Is there anything that I can do to help?
No, not really. Thanks, though. I don't know what I want. I want something good to happen, but wishing doesn't get you too far. I'm just here, doing the stuff that I normally do. I am hungry, though. I wish I could eat like a normal person, but I can't.
What are you going to do today?
So far, it looks like as little as possible. I'll play guitar and practice, but I'm not really into it. Haven't been into it. I don't know what the fuck I want, but I'm not really worried much about that. I should call somebody today. I didn't talk to anybody yesterday, and you know how easy it is to feel isolated during this time. Today that may be more important than practicing, but it's not a case of one or the other. I can do both.
Who are you thinking about calling, farmboy?
You're full of questions today, man,
That's my job.
Maybe my older brother. Haven't talked to him for awhile. I don't know. There's got to be somebody I can talk to.
You can always talk to me.
Thanks, man, I appreciate it. You're a fuckin' lifesaver. It's always good to have someone to talk with.
coffee from a thermos/ oatmeal from a bag/ living with no standards/ is such a fuckin' drag/ I could be a wealthy man/ if I had good luck/ instead I'm living in a basement/ and I'm feeling kinda stuck/ someone give me a reason/ hand me a clue/ I've been broke a month of Sundays/ and I don't know what I can do/ I've had to deal with bad luck/ morning, noon, and night/ you may call it self pity/ but it's just my stupid life
there is something in store for you/ I don't know what it is/ but I know that it's something good/ this ain't just a "gee whiz"/ I just know it's coming soon/ the cow will be jumping over the moon/ the world is just a big balloon/ and it's there to you for the taking/ all you have to do is try/ there's no need to feel forsaken/ to meet your dreams/ you must now reawaken/ everything is there for you today
my home has lost its power/ electricity is gone/ there is no light or heater/ that I can depend on/ it's cold and it's lonely/ there is nothing that can be done/ and it's many hours until I/ will see the light of the morning sun
my home has lost its power/ there's nothing I can do/ except move the blankets closer/ and hope some warmth comes through/ there is no light for reading/ the stoves won't give a spark/ there's no TV for watching/ everything is dark
I spend my life waiting/ for so many things that may not happen/ it's a shame I don't use my time/ for something else/ I wait impatiently/ toes and fingers snapping/ it's a damn hard job/ having to be myself/ what can you tell me/ what do you know/ if I had an answer/ I would tell you so
I spend my life hoping/ for dreams that will never come true/ but I keep thinking/ something's going to come my way/ there's no use in wishing/ for things that end up empty/ I have to face it the whole day through
all the things you can't talk about/ that's what I need to say/ usually, when it's my time to speak/ I always stay away/ because all the words inside my mind/ disappear away/ and I am left there, silent/ with my vocal cords encumbered/ my days are surely numbered/ if I don't say what I need to say/ these words will never go away
we both got old, Ohio/ you with your fields of green/ fading in the sun/ me and my hopeless dreams/ where are we to go now/ where do we belong/ I never understood/ everything that went wrong/ Ohio/ still we keep pushing on
you knew me when I was young, Ohio/ you became my every step/ still, with all my dreaming/ nothing has happened yet/ what happens to shattered plans/ do they go somewhere to die/ still with every passing day/ I give it one more try/ Ohio/ now it's our turn to cry
(bridge) leaves fall/ colors fade/ we live our lives/ alone and afraid
we both got old, Ohio/ many folks have moved away/ the bright lights of the city calls/ from many miles away/ I remember springtime/ I remember being a child/ where life took its sweet time/ where daydreams would run wild/ Ohio/ you still can make me smile
we both got old, Ohio/ you with your fields of green/ fading in the sun/ me and my hopeless dreams/ that all became undone/ where are we to go now/ where do we belong/ I never tried to learn how/ everything thing went wrong/ Ohio/ still we keep pushing on
you knew me when I was young, Ohio/ you traced my every step/ with all my dreaming and my scheming/ nothing has happened yet/ what happens to broken hearts/ do they go somewhere to die/ still with every passing day/ I still give it one more try/ Ohio/ now it's our turn to cry
(bridge) leaves fall/ colors fade/ we live our lives./ alone and afraid
we both got old, Ohio/ many folks have moved away/ the bright lights of the city calls/ to you from many miles away/ I remember springtime/ I remember being a child/ where life took its sweet time/ where daydreams would run wild/ Ohio/ you still can make me smile
outside the snow is falling/ and I'm indoors/ safe and warm/ I hear the winter calling/ in the thunder and the storm/ the heater is working overtime/ to thaw this old heart of mine/ but I know it will/ outside the world is sitting still
snow falls/ and my heart is as cold/ as it is outside/ in the howling wind/ I stand tall/ but I'm feeling old/ like there is ice/ right under the skin/ I stay inside/ I wear a sweater/ I turn the heater up a notch/ nowhere to hide/ there's nothing better/ than cinnamon and butterscotch/ pour the hot cocoa/ no marshmallows, please/ I've got a faint cough/ and I'm ready to sneeze/ snow falls/ and my heart is so cold/ I believe that it's going to break
gentle warrior/ your work is all done/ you gave us your best/ you fought for the good/ gentle warrior/ your battles are through/ with music and words/ you did all you could do/ you have given us more/ than we can ever repay/ your earthly life is done/ but you haven't gone away
gentle warrior/ I remember your laugh/ you eased us with humor/ in all that you do/ gentle warrior/ you stood for the beliefs/ you felt in your soul/ with the power inside you/ you gave us your friendship/ you paved the way/ for the long road/ we are walking today
(chorus) gentle warrior/ gentle warrior/ you are with us every day/ gentle warrior/ gentle warrior/ may light guide you on your way
gentle warrior/ you taught us so much/ you were such a blessing/ in a world so rough/ gentle warrior/ I know what you'd say/ all you can do/ is never enough/ I will keep your example/ down deep in my heart/ there is nothing/ that can keep us apart
(chorus) gentle warrior/ gentle warrior/ you are with me every day/ gentle warrior/ gentle warrior/ you will never go away
the forecast calls for snow/ I will take my chances/ right now the sky is blue/ we'll see just what the chance is/ rain and sleet and heat and cold/ weather doesn't do what it's told/ it crosses lines of young and old/ we'll watch as a snowflake dances
across the winter sky/ the winds start to freezing/ but me, I'll stay inside/ where electricity knows no season/ I will not walk, I will not run/ the time of snow has just begun/ for some folks, it may mean lots of fun/ but for me, it is not pleasin'
I am not warm/ sad, but it's true/ I am not warm/ but I can be warm with you
daffodils growing/ winter sky is not snowing/ spring is coming soon/ I feel it coming/ the cold, it is not numbing/ I'm outside my room/ and I can feel/ April warmness in the fields/ waiting for the moon/ the sky is blue and/ looking at you, and/ spring is coming soon
I am reaching out for you/ will you take my hand/ will you help me through this life/ will you help me understand/ I hear the thunder/ I fear the storm/ building up inside of me/ all you strangers/ be forewarned/ the future is not ours to see/ which is why I'm needing you/ needing you to reach out for me
gentle warrior/ your work is all done/ you gave us your finest/ you fought for the good/ gentle warrior/ your worries are over/ with your words and your music/ you did all that you could/ you have given us more/ than we can ever repay/ your life may have ended/ but you haven't gone away
gentle warrior/ I remember your spirit/ you eased us with humor/ in all that you do/ gentle warrior/ you stood for the beliefs/ you felt in your soul/ with the power inside you/ you gave me your friendship/ you paved the way/ for the long road/ we are walking today
(chorus) gentle warrior/ gentle warrior/ you are with us every day/ gentle warrior/ gentle warrior/ may light guide you on your way
gentle warrior/ you taught us so much/ you were such a blessing/ in a world so rough/ gentle warrior/ I know what you'd be thinking/ all you can do/ is never enough/ I will keep your example/ down deep in my heart/ no idea of death/ can keep us apart
(chorus) gentle warrior/ gentle warrior/ you are with me every day/ gentle warrior/ gentle warrior/ you will never go away
gentle warrior/ your work is all done/ you gave us your finest/ you fought for the good/ gentle warrior/ your worries are over/ you did what you could/ you have given us more/ than we can ever repay/ your life may have ended/ but you haven't gone away
gentle warrior/ I remember your spirit/ you eased us with humor/ in all that you do/ gentle warrior/ you stood for the beliefs/ you felt in your soul/ with the power inside you/ you gave me your friendship/ you paved the way/ for the long road/ we are walking today
(chorus) gentle warrior/ gentle warrior/ you are with us every day/ gentle warrior/ gentle warrior/ mkay light guide you on your way
gentle warrior/ you taught us so much/ you were such a blessing/ in a world that's so rough/ gentle warrior/ I know what you'd be thinking/ all I can do/ is never enough/ I will keep your example/ down deep in my heart/ no about of trouble/ can keep us apart
(chorus) gentle warrior/ gentle warrior/ you are with me every day/ gentle warrior/ gentle warrior/ you will never go away
everybody's talking about you/ you're the girl we've been looking for/ we've looked all over the world/ now we don't have to look no more/ your names on our lips/ you're all that we feel/ as far as we're concerned/ you're the real deal/ you're gonna show them and how/ you're nobody's whisper now
nothing works/ everything I try/ is always denied/ nothing works/ no matter what I do/ nothing ever is true/ I work and struggle and beg and plead/ but life won't satisfy my needs/ my forward motion falls in reverse/ nothing ever works
nothing helps/ it doesn't matter why/ all alone I cry/ nothing helps/ all my trials are for nothing/ I swear, there must be something/ I do all that a man can do/ but there's nothing here to see me through/ I need some help for myself/ I need a little help
I know everything about heartache/ and I don't need to/ know anything more/ I know everything about how a heart break/ and I'm afraid about/ what's in store/ I been lonely all my life/ and it's no good for me/ I lie awake most every night/ but nothing I can see/ can show me enough/ I want to know everything about love
I know everything/ about loneliness/ I know that it/ can make you shout/ it can tear you apart/ it can make you cry/ it can turn you inside out/ I've been lonely all my life/ like the northern star above/ I want to know everything/ about love
I know everything about sadness/ and I don't need/ to know anything else/ I don't know how to be caring// it's a problem I have/ about myself/ I've been lonely all my life/ and now it's push come to shove/ I want to know everything about love
