I dare you to be happy

she said
I dare you to be happy
I know you got it in you
if you'd only just begin to
would you do that for me please?
I said
I'm trying to be happy
as much as I possibly can
you don't understand 
the depth of my disease

she said
I don't believe that shit
I know you could feel better
if you'd get yourself together 
and get off your lazy ass
I said
I want to be happy
but I'm barely surviving
I feel like I keep driving
and I'm running out of gas