my suicide note

I've had miles and miles of bad mental health
so much I just have to mention
you should have bought
a lot of stock
in suicide prevention
right now you'd be a millionaire
owner of hotlines galore
making cash tax free
from trash like me
who don't want to be anymore

had me down my razor blade
cyanide with lemonade
if only I could have stayed
in my mama's womb
jumping off a ladder
with a rope around my neck
when your brain's busy betraying you
you just say "what the heck!
DJ, could you please
play " Loser" by Beck
I need to hear that song right now
I think I'm gonna be sick