I used to be more

I used to be more
than just another stranger
reaching for a future
beyond my control
I used to be more
than a self-defined victim
grasping at something
he can no longer hold

          once I had hopes
          once I had dreams
          now they are gone
          to nowhere, it seems
          once I knew love
          once I knew pleasure
          now it's only pain
          too big to measure