same old same old stuff (free writing)

I been not sleeping

I been worrying about you-name-it

either nothing's worth keeping

or I'm not around to claim it

all those far-fetched schemes

all those worn and weathered dreams

all the well-oiled machines

of my imagination

I see none of those now

no, they are not allowed

there's just this questioning how

did I get in this situation

I been not thinking

I been pretending all night

eyes involuntarily blinking

something just ain't right

all my usual solutions

taught at the leading institutions

ways to lead out from confusion

they're failing me these days

I'm acting out in self defense

I'm living in the present tense

my hard-earned common sense

is worthy of your praise

you really should be amazed

but it's not enough

it's not enough

it's just a never ending circle

of the same old same old stuff

it's not enough

it's not enough

but it will somehow have to do

I been asking

I been wandering alone

I been multi-tasking

the whole way home

all my cautious indecisions

all my deafening opinions

multiplying by the millions

they don't do me any good

every minute

every hour

every second

to the second power

I need to know how, sir

I mean, I would if I could

but it's not enough

it's not enough

it's just a never ending circle

of the same old same old stuff

it's not enough

it's not enough

but it will somehow have to do

it will somehow have to do

you really should be amazed