a story of my own, take two

I don't know
if I have a story of my own
to tell you
I'm not sure 
there's anything to say
you see,
sometimes I don't 
know myself too well
you'd 
be smart
to turn and walk away

I've got ways
to jump start my heart
but they're not working
I've looked inside
all my memories
everywhere I go
there's always trouble lurking
and I don't think
that's what you want to see

          I want to be the hero 
          of this story
          just for one moment
          I want to be on top
          all my life, 
          everyone's ignored me
          and now I'm requesting
          that everybody
          stop