peaceful

I want everything to be peaceful

because that's not the way I am inside

and my emotions still control me

and there's no way to run and hide

I am shaking, I am trembling

like a junkie without a fix

I have tried and I am telling you

there is no way out of this

I want everything to be normal

not at all the way life has been

I want to predict everything that happens

before it happens again

I don't want choices, I just want to know

that everything will be okay

I will do anything you ask

if you just show me the way

          I have lived my whole life in fear

          that all I am will disappear

I want everything to be boring

because change gives me anxiety

I want to control my daily thoughts

the voices that are inside of me

I've heard no two days are the same

I'd like to challenge that theory

by doing the same thing day after day

there'd be no cause to worry

I want everything to be peaceful

with no chance of conflict or grief

just one day after another

corresponding to my own beliefs

keep me away from life's surprises

I know you can show me how

I want everything to be peaceful

not the way it is right now