all I am is hurt

there are no reasons
no lessons learned
no way to escape
no way to return
no masterpieces written
nothing ever worked
I am still unchanged
all I am is hurt

I've heard there's a purpose
for all that you go through
I hate to interfere
but I'm the exception to the rule
my brain won't retain anything
it just remains inert
I'm as fucked up as ever
and all I am is hurt

so lock me in my apartment
throw away the key
and get those hopeful feelings
the hell away from me
lay me in the hard cold ground
cover me with dirt
let me find some peace of mind
all I am is hurt