I don't want to hope

I don't want to hope
but I can't help it
it keeps me up all night
it helps even though
inside I know
nothing ever works out right
but still I hope
just like a dope
that hope is always there
I don't want to hope
but I can't help it
I'd rather be prepared

          for hard times and trouble
          and pain and misery
          better hurry on the double
          man, trouble's looking for me