Then this happens

I'm just losing all the way around anymore. I just got the news that the song I sent off to be in a competition wasn't selected. 

Fuck! Jesus Christ! Why the fuck can't I ever win? I don't fuckin' know why I try. First, my brother and his family decide I'm not good enough to go with them on their trip. Then this happens. 

I am so sad and so angry and it doesn't fuckin' matter 'cause nothing is going to change. Forget everything today. Forget the practicing, the eating correctly, the exercising, everything. Nobody will help me. Fuck this world.