apartment (possible bridge)

maybe I'll go outside
maybe I'll take a walk
maybe this world is not nearly
as bad as I thought
but I don't believe it
yeah, I have my doubts
I'm afraid to live in a world
that I can't live without

apartment (verse two)

the rooms are all dark
no sunshine gets in
the shades are all drawn
the refrigerator hums
its one-note anthem again
off and on
and on and on
if you're concerned
you'd need not be
I'm safe and sound
to the nth degree
this is my apartment

apartment

footsteps above me
basement below
cobwebs on the ceiling
I'm trapped in here
nowhere to go 
life has hurt my feelings
don't knock on my door
don't ring the bell
I've made my own prison
I've got my own cell
welcome to my apartment

lost

you say you're lost
baby, I am too
let's pull together
let's see what we can do
I know there's some trouble
to get into
me and you
we're gonna have a whole lot of fun

I got a few dollars
in the pocket of my jeans
baby, didn't you know?
I'm a man of means
I can play real dirty
but my conscience is clean
and my words are true
me and you
we're gonna have a whole lot of fun

I failed, okay?

I am so fuckin' irresponsible, man. I feel so fuckin' guilty.

Why, farmboy? What happened?

I didn't feel like doing my laundry today, so I didn't.

That's it?

It's, like, just one of many things I need to do, and I didn't do it. I failed, okay? This is why I can't have a clean apartment like everybody else. I've always been like this, and it pisses me off. What the fuck is wrong with me?

farmboy?

What?

Breathe.

I don't want to fuckin' breathe, I want to be…

What do you want to be, farmboy?

Somebody else.

No you don't.

Yeah, that's true. (laughs)  I just get frustrated and I can't see why I don't change.

You are changing, farmboy.

Not fast enough, man.

Let me let you in on a little secret, farmboy. Right now you're in the midst of a transformation…

Yeah, right.

I'm serious.You've put in a lot of work and, more importantly, you're beginning to think a little more of yourself.You're looking at possibilities. Your life is going to change, farmboy.

What if it doesn't?

It will.

Well, this is interesting…

little white lies

I tell those little white lies
I tell them every day
I open up my mouth
and lies are all I have to say
I'm lying when I tell you "good morning"
I'm lying when I tell you "I'm fine"
I'm lying when I look like
I'm in control of this life of mine

I tell those little white lies
I tell them to your face
I look into your eyes
and tell you facts that I've replaced
replaced them with jam-packed jargon
replaced them with action verbs
replaced them with more insight
that I borrow from 
other people's words

please don't be disturbed
by my sentences 
all warped and dusty
it's just what I prefer
really, baby, 
you can trust me

origami

I will let you fold me
whichever way you want
I will not protest
when you discard me;
in fact, I expect it
if  you want someone to obey
then I'm the man you're looking for

so go ahead
fold me
twist me and turn me
bend me, shape me
any way you want me*
just leave me in one piece
for I am human
I am not made of paper
I breathe and bleed
I dream and cry

but if you can forget all that
and forgive my animal ways
maybe I can learn
to forget myself


*American Breed, 1967