what I would give

what I would give
is not mine to give
but I would give it freely
if I could have
what I require
I wouldn't be so needy
I don't want much
a human touch
a life more right than wrong
what I would give
if I could only
feel like I belong

I don't remember
a world without
this hunger in my heart
I've tried but it's
locked tight inside
no key
no way to start
if I could see
my history
I'd trade it for a song
what I would give
if I could only
feel like I belong

what I would give
I'm begging you
let me take out a loan
I cannot stay 
here anymore
this world is not my home
I cannot stand
to be alone as I am
I don't believe I'm that strong
what I would give
if I could only
feel like I belong

my Christmas tree

my Christmas tree glows
with the light of tradition
from central Texas

bought from a thrift store
across the street from the school
I was employed at

and I miss Austin
I seemed much more hopeful then
but now I'm stronger

than I ever thought
I would ever have to be.
I will grow stronger

day on top of days
like past due library books
like moving muscles

I will see Christmas
next year, and with faith and hard work
maybe strength will grow

and I'll bring out my
Christmas tree for one more year
for celebration

and thanks for the life
that I am privileged to live
with love and courage

innocent bystander

my head is spinning sideways
nothing makes any sense
I can see the neighbors 
yapping over the fence
me, I'm just sleeping
off the night before
yes, I was there when it happened
when they kicked in the door

too much marijuana
can make you squirm
and I had too much tequila
man, I ate the fuckin' worm
I was drunker than shit, man
I could barely see
so why are you
interrogating me

          yeah, give me a number
          take down my legal name
          I never knew nothing
          I ain't taking the blame
          I've always been on the side
          of the long arm of the law
          I'm the innocent bystander
          there ain't nothing that I saw

now, I didn't touch her
I want you to understand
I barely even knew her
never even held her hand
when Jim from the Southside
and his merry group of men
took everything she had
again and again and again

yeah, I knew it wasn't right
yeah, I could have called 911
but the police in this city
what the hell would they have done?
I didn't know the bitch
I was scared of them boys
you wouldn't have heard me anyway
they was making all that noise
they were making all that fuckin' noise

          yeah, give me a number
          take down my legal name
          I never saw nothing
          I ain't taking the blame
          I've always been on the side
          of freedom and the law
          I'm the innocent bystander
          there ain't nothing that I saw

and anyway, what's the big deal?
I seen her around these parts
working for her medicine
in the back seat of a car
look, she's got a reputation
in this shithole of a town
this ain't the first time someone saw her
with her panties pulled way down

          yeah, give me a number
          take down my legal name
          I never saw nothing
          I ain't taking the blame
          I've always been on the side
          of the long arm of the law
          I'm the innocent bystander
          there ain't nothing that I saw

one place to another

you seem to be lost
where are you going, my brother?
your guess is as good as mine
from one place to another

romance without finance

romance
without finance
don't stand a chance

when I was a boy
early on in life
my grandma told me
someday you'll look for a wife
you'll want true love
that's guaranteed
but there's something else
you're gonna need

she said
romance
without finance
don't stand a chance

what I want this Christmas

what I want this Christmas
is to not think so much of myself
I want to give something to someone
that can't be given by somebody else
want I want this Christmas
is to pay attention when I see
every star and every light
in every night and Christmas tree

dick's song

I buy the best lubricant
I buy the classiest porn
so why oh why
won't you be reborn
when I'm with my girl
I think "oops...surprise!"
you hang like you're sleeping
when I need you to rise

          don't make feel sad
          don't get me mad
          my tears fall like 
          falls like Niagara
          don't fail me so
          I need you to grow
          don't make me break out the Viagra

I handle you gently
I handle you rough
I'm amazed of the joy
from my own human touch
but do you respond
to my not-so-wet dreams?
don't make me resort
to my medical means

          I'm begging of you
          please don't make me blue
          don't make me
          have to nag ya
          I need inner peace
          you're my only release
          don't make me break out the Viagra