same old song

this is what you want

a quiet life on a country farm

wooden swing on the front porch

a rickety old barn

but this is where you are

a broken life in an uncaring city

you wanted more

it was a shame and a pity

          what happens to dreams

          they just fly away

          in the scattered leaves  

          of yesterday

          what happens to dreams

          they used to be here

          one by one they disappeared

          and now they're gone

          it's the same old song

this is what you want

a reason to live

a promise to work for

a chance to forgive

this is where you are

waiting for the war to cease

you wanted more

now you'll settle for inner peace

          you spend your life denying

          but still you keep on trying

          it's all you know how to do

          your heart is still open

          and you won't give up hoping

          that dreams sometimes come true

          what happens to dreams

          they just fly away

          in the scattered leaves

          of yesterday

          what happens to dreams

          they used to be here

          one by one they disappeared

          and now they're gone

          it's the same old song

everything was fine

everything was fine

until the news came

the doctor walked into the waiting room

and asked us to meet him in private

he told us about our daughter

and the world stopped

we could not pick up where we left off

we were deep in shock forever

will you have to operate?

the doctor looked into our tired eyes

and said it was too late

we will see you again

that's what I learned in church

and I believe it

that's the only way it could be

I used to crave life and living

but now I wait for the day

when we will be reunited

how I used to love living

when I had nothing to die for

wanting a friend

I am wanting a friend

anyone will do

just as long as I have

somebody to talk to

being alone all the time

is a crying shame

problem is, I

am the only one to blame

I am waiting for

my loneliness to end

I am wanting a friend

I am needing someone

to keep me company

somebody who will care

as far as their eyes can see

being alone all the time

is a crime and a sin

anyway, here I am

all by myself again

I'm tired of looking

for a way to pretend

I am wanting a friend

me first

me first

you can take care of yourself

from here on out

there ain't no one else

that I will attend to

that I will take care

that I would blindly

follow along anywhere

being with you

is not a blessing

it's a curse

from now on it's

me first

short walk today

I took a short walk today

out to the corner and back

and it may have been nice

but I don't know

because I never noticed

it's so strange

that you can go out in the world

with its details

of trees and houses and dogs

and never see these things

instead, I grumbled

about having to take this stupid walk

next time, 

I plan to take a second

and look around

and listen

and smell

and touch the concrete

with my shoes

next time

I plan to notice

I don't want to write

I don't want to write

I don't want to do anything

I just want to lay around

and watch the flowers grow

I have no idea

why I am just so lazy

but I guess that I'm

gonna suffer through it though

why do I have no ambition?

why are my talents so damn dry?

I do my best to give myself permission

but all I'm left with

is the question why

why am I so tired?

why am I so bored?

all of these questions

will not be ignored

the main thing is

whether wrong or right

no answer is in sight

I don't want to write

today

claim it now

I was waiting for you

by the front porch swing

I was looking for

a new song to sing

I was longing for

some good news to bring

when you showed up at my door

but you never showed up

I don't know what to do

my nails are all bitten

my mood is dark blue

my plans for today

are all ruined and through

I have no hope anymore

          but that's okay

          it's all right

          I still got

          Saturday night

          the whole weekend's 

          in sight

          right now

          I don't know how

          but I'm going to claim it now