very much alive

one thing about life

is that it is fatal

but I am still very much alive

I still can feel with my heart

I still can see you

through my eyes

my life is not over

I am still here

right now

and I will live each day

although I don't know why

although I don't know how

anyway, I survive

I am very much alive

day off

I'm taking the day off

from the job of being me

I've formed a union

and we all disagree

with the way I treat myself

disregarding mental health

ignoring insecurity

so I'm taking the day off

from the job of being me

I'm turning the phone off

and I won't return your calls

your texts are all unread

and I've got some alcohol

I'm leaving yesterday behind

I need time to unwind

to finally feel free

I'm taking the day off

from the mess inside of me

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          no need to worry

          the worst thing I will do

          is eat up all the cheeze-its

          and watch endless you tube

I'll be back tomorrow

I just need a break

from all my worries

and mostly my mistakes

but for now I feel okay

drifting my life away

I once was blind, but now I see

I'm taking the day off

from the job of being me

yesterday is gone

yesterday is gone

never to appear again

so why does it still haunt me

those times of way back when

all those days of long ago

turn around and hurt me so

I've tried my best, but I don't know

the spirit that's inside me

many years have come and gone

but I still remain

you'd think that it would change somehow

but it's all stayed the same

I have tried the best I could

to turn the evil into good

I've done everything I should

and still peace denies me

          I've worked all my life

          and I'm still not done

          I want to be the man

          that I have become

all those days behind me

need to find a place to rest

all my failings remind me

that I have tried my best

all this time and I'm still not done

I'm close now to the setting sun

hoping like I've just begun

I still can't give up

even though I've had enough

yesterday is gone

but I'm still fighting

ready for snow

Christmas is here

and it's going to be a mellow one

for this year I have been blessed

with peace and acceptance

I am now ready for snow

let there be peace (rewrite 1)

let there be peace

in the war zone of your mind

when bitter thoughts control you

when you leave yourself behind

let there be peace

in the coldness of your heart

when love is forgotten

when fear tears it apart

in this time when sadness

never seems to cease

let there be peace

let there be love

when you're feeling all alone

when you're lost and you can't find

your way back home

let there be love

when the road ahead is rough

when everything inside you

says you're just not good enough

when emptiness and hurt 

are all you can think of

let there be love

let there be hope

when hope is nowhere to be found

when the ways of life

try to push you underground

let there be hope

when you haven't got a friend

and your chance of happiness

feels like it's at an end

in this time of feeling desperate

and you don't know how to cope

let there be hope

let there be peace

let there be love

let there be hope

let there be enough

let there be peace

let there be peace

in the war zone of your mind

when bitter thoughts control you

and you leave yourself behind

let there be peace

for the coldness of your heart

when you forget about love

and fear tears it apart

in the times when sadness

never seems to cease

let there be peace

let there be love

when you're feeling all alone

when you're lost and you can't find

your way back home

let there be love

when the road ahead is rough

and everything inside you

says you're just not good enough

when emptiness 

is all you can think of

let there be love

let there be hope

when hope is nowhere to be found

when the ways of living

try to push you underground

let there be hope

when you haven't got a friend

and your chance of happiness

feels like it's at an end

in the times of feeling desperate

and you don't know how to cope

let there be hope

let there be peace

let there be love

let there be hope

let there be enough

how my eyes wept

oh how i cried

without you by my side

the night when I found out

how much you had lied

it mad me so blue

I was so damn upset

oh, how my eyes wept

how my eyes wept