meant for me

something happened the other day

somehow my blues just slipped away

and for one sweet moment I could see

the sun was shining clear and bright

and before day turned into night

I knew it was meant for me

joy seeped into my poor heart

instead of tearing me apart

and I knew that this is supposed to be

I didn't know just what to do

until I turned and looked at you

and I knew it was meant for me

          the moment that I saw you

          I knew you had arrived

          now I know how it feels

          to be truly alive

love is not an empty promise

if it's true and deeply honest

devoid of pain and misery

I used to live in doubt and fear

until the moment you appeared

and I knew it was meant for me

walk

I saw the sunlight pouring through the trees

in a stream so wide

pioneers could not have crossed it

I saw trees and flowers and bushes

confirming the toll of winter,

leaves long gone

I saw people strolling,

wearing masks in case someone walks by

sometimes there are dogs

big dogs, friendly

at the end of a leash.

still, they seem happy

and then there is me

huffing and puffing

as I roll down streets

me and my walker

out to see the world

somebody's floor

I need to sleep on somebody's floor

I can't be at home anymore

I don't need a sofa and beds make me sore

I need to sleep on somebody's floor

I tried being quiet

I tried being quiet

but it just wouldn't work

every word I said

made me sound like a jerk

my mind is screaming

and broken in two

I didn't know what to do

so I didn't say nothing

I did what I was told

I need to learn to be silent

before I get too old

see all that's around me

through these tired eyes

you never know what'll happen

maybe I'll be surprised

closing time

it's a world that keeps on turning

in the shadows of my mind

I can feel the fires burning

in the thoughts I've left behind

memories keep coming

and you know they're coming fast

I can feel my senses numbing

but that's not going to last

          take me

          shake me

          show me that I'm here

          take me

          reawaken me

          closing time is near

screens

all day long I'm on the internet

my cellular phone

my TV set

I don't remember

I forget

how it feels to live

in a world without computer screens

a world with other

human beings

I don't remember

what it means

to share this planet with

people who don't share my views

it's there for anyone to choose

please forgive me 

if I snooze

this thinking makes me tired

so I am here, looking for you

I have no idea

what to do

I thought I thought

everything through

but it ends up uninspired

do you ever think of me

do you ever think of me

in times of trouble

in times of need

when the past is bright enough to see

do you ever think of me

am I ever in your mind

or am I just someone

that you have left behind

when your dreams cross the finish line

am I ever in your mind

          or have I left completely

          no longer tethered to your voice

          did I disappear away

          was that your only choice

am I ever in your heart

I wouldn't expect that 

to be true

you know my world was torn apart

am I ever in your heart