do you ever miss me

do you ever miss me

the way that I miss you

do you remember

the things we used to do

like walking in the evening

below a starry sky

now all that's left

is a lingering question why

do you ever miss the way

I used to make you laugh

riding with the top pulled down

for your own behalf

now I'm stuck in sorrow

I hang my head in shame

I know it's not your fault and

I'm the one to blame

website

I should have never seen your website

I should have never googled your name

through with waiting

I'm through with waiting

I've been on hold all morning

nobody's picking up

I should have had a warning

I'd be wasting my whole day

sitting here alone

getting carpel tunnel

while holding a telephone

I'm through with waiting

I don't seem to be receiving

I don't see any hope

I'm tired of believing

that anything will happen

I know it will be wrong

that's what happens when you're waiting

for far too long

where we had begun (rewrite 3)

my feet stand firmly

on this cold hard ground

it feels so strange

not having you around

time was endless

when we were young

I wish we could go back 

to where we had begun

I see your family

in the front row

people are gathered

all the friends you know

I say my goodbye

I hope you had fun

I wish we could go back 

to where we had begun

          I remember you

          from so very long ago

          tethered to

          your transistor radio

my heart is filled with sorrow

I think of way back then

I listen to the preacher

and I whisper amen

a handful of dirt

and the setting of the sun

I wish we could go back 

to where we had begun

I wish I knew

I wish I knew

how to fall out of love

it would save me so much time

and trouble

I'd feel right at home

with the fact of being alone

I don't have to be

half of a couple

I would have more money

I'd recapture my youth

I'd look straight ahead

at the cold, hard truth

instead of you

I wish I knew

I wish I knew

how to be alone

instead I'm just

another stranger

who doesn't know his name

but knows that he's to blame

for being a coward

in the face of danger

I could be content

with nobody around

I wouldn't be looking

for love to be found

it's true

I wish I knew

not a quitter

sneakers hanging from a telephone wire

sister's singing with the children's choir

mom and dad are safe at home

oh, why did I choose to roam

life is harsh but death is mean

it's its very own machine

I turn it off, but it comes back on

depends what ground you're upon

          make me crazy, make me sane

          I know I'm not the one to blame

          make me angry, make me bitter

          I just know I'm not a quitter

          

I am waiting

I am waiting

I don't know what for

it's not like good news

ever knocks upon my door

it's not like true love

or sweet fate comes to visit

if they did, I would simply ask

who is it?

I am waiting 

for you to notice me

I'm right in front of you

perhaps you don't see

I've got my arms wide open

a smile of my face

but when you look at me

I feel erased