for dear life

I'm holding onto you

for dear life

as I walk through a world

of hunger and greed

pain cuts through me

like a jackknife

but you beside me

is all I need

I don't know 

if I can make it through

that is why 

I'm depending on you

I'm sticking close to you

for dear life

I'm afraid I might stumble

afraid I might fall

you shine like a bright star

in the dark night

you are what I've needed

most of all

others have lied, but I know with you

I will see just what is true

I'm holding onto you 

for dear life

that's all I know how to do

I searched for evil

I searched for evil and it came to me

in the name of forgotten history

and I approved it

I said "come in"

and it swept through my body

like a cold, hard wind

now I cry on bended knees

"I need someone to help me, please"

worry

I've got nothing to do today

so I'll worry my life away

I'll devote each day and night

to whatever's not going right

what I don't want to find

is growing inside my mind

I don't know what's in store

so I'll worry some more

I worry about near and far

I worry about the world at large

I worry about what I'm about

I worry about my bank account

I worry about being strange 

I worry about climate change

I worry about that and worry about this

I think I need a therapist

          maybe I could change my mind

          think about something else

          but when I do I always find

          I just worry about myself

just when I think I'm free at last

I start worrying about my past

and when all that is done

I worry about the days to come

even if the worrying should cease

I doubt that I'll be at peace

'cause I know that something's wrong

so I worry on and on

someday I'll be set free

no more worrying for me

but till that day, I live in fear

my worrying will not disappear

I'll worry till the day I die

funny thing is, I don't know why

I know I'll never be free

worrying's just a part of me

I don't have memories

I don't have memories

they've been taken away from me

the life that I lived as a boy

has done its best to be destroyed

I'm not sure what to make of this

I've talked to doctors and therapists

I've done my best to carry on

but those memories are dead and gone

I don't remember much

not a loving word or a human touch

I don't know the bad, I've forgotten the good

the old times of my neighborhood

people talk to me of innocent times

I nod my head like it's all fine

I know my brain has work to do

I miss the days I never knew

          where are the times that I once lived

          why won't they enter my mind

          is there a reason that I should forgive

          something I can't find

          

I will go on my way

ain't no use looking for yesterday

now the days are moving fast

more hopes and dreams that just won't last

you tell your stories of childhood fun

I'd tell them too, but I have none

what the hell happened to me

I don't have memories

 

look at what you've done

look at what you've done

you let evil rule your heart

now your actions have come home

and they're tearing us apart

I remember everything you've done

I've memorized your name

and I'm convinced that since you voted

that you're the one to blame

and now our freedom's threatened

and you're suspect number one

look at what you've done

my turn to cry

I make my way 

through every day

I make lots of plans

I see myself 

as someone else

I don't know who I am

I can't ignore

who I was before

though I do my best to try

I always see

another side of me

when it's my turn to cry

it's a surprise

when I look in your eyes

and see the kindness there

I don't expect

the joy I collect

I'm always unaware

every move

describes the truth

that I cannot deny

I feel your love

I hope it's enough

when it's my turn to cry

keep me safe

I cannot wait

for peace to come my way

good or bad

or maybe it's sad

I'm sure it is here to stay

and I must mention

if you answer my questions

I'll know the reasons why

time is a thief

and I'll get no relief

when it's my turn to cry

please, nobody worry

please, nobody worry

I am doing all right

it's nice of you to be concerned

but I'll make it through the night

I have my books and podcasts

and ways to use my mind

if I use the wits about me

who knows what I'll find

but I will be okay

as fine as fine can be

all I'm asking of you, please

don't worry about me