nobody remembers me

I used to live here

once upon a time

I think of the friends

I used to call mine

now there's loneliness

where joy used to be

nobody remembers me

my heart now is empty

for the people I knew

where did they go

did they run off to

a future so fine

that I cannot see

nobody remembers me

          I once had a life

          filled with good times and friends

          what I would give

          to see that again

but those days have passed

and I am alone

thinking too much

about the people I've known

why have they gone

now they're history

nobody remembers me

now I am old

and there's no one around

friendship and love

are nowhere to be found

I'm locked in myself

and I'll never be free

nobody remembers me

nobody remembers me

unsatisfied

I'm so unsatisfied

I'm sick of being myself

I would do anything in my power

just to be somebody else

so I'm going by another name

I'm changing the way I look

my voice will never be the same

I'm no longer in the phone book

and the new me will be better

than the old me never was

if you ask me why I'm doing this

the answer is "just because"

I can never be

who I was before

I am not that person anymore

I'm so unsatisfied

it's been a long, long time

since I've had excitement

in this poor life of mine

and so there'll be some changes made

I can't live my life like this

my smile is a masquerade

there's so much that I miss

but those days are over now

the new me is a success

the old me would whine and moan

but the brand new me says "yes!"

I can never be

who I was back then

I can't be that person again

I'm so unsatisfied

but that is changing soon

yesterday I was hiding away

tonight I howl at the moon

and I'll learn to take my chances

whether right or wrong

no matter what the dance is

I'll do my best to go along

my long past days are over

never to be seen again

they'll be there in my memory

those days of way back then

but I will never be

who I was before

I am not that person anymore

I am not that person anymore

rambling

I don't know who I am anymore

I don't recognize myself

there's something going wrong here

with my mental health

all my ups are falling down

and I am sinking deep

there must be somewhere out of here

maybe I can fall asleep

but sleep doesn't come

when you want it to

the night has too much

worrying to do

and I have worried

all my days

it seems to never

go away

          so bundle me up

          send me to bed

          so I can face

          the day ahead

          all that is

          in front of me

          are things that I

          don't want to see

time's closing door

you know who I used to be

before age took control of me

I was young and free then

before the years added up

and time started to consume me

and all of those who knew me

told me I was a good man

but it still wasn't enough

          help me remember

          for the rest of my days

          the wonders of youth

          which has long gone away

          help me remember

          what went on before

          before I opened

          time's closing door

I walked the straight and narrow

and I did my best to follow

but fear and worries found me

and threw me to the ground

and now you find me here

doing my best to disappear

I look around for your faces

but I don't see you around

          help me remember

          for the rest of my days

          the wonders of youth

          which has long gone away

          help me remember

          what went on before

          before I opened

          time's closing door

railroad sunset

I am looking at the world

through a window on a train

I see houses and gas stations passing

there are children out playing

and neighbors awaiting

and strangers who can't help laughing

it's the beginning of evening

with moms cooking supper

in a summer we soon will forget

I ride on this train

where all that remains

is the end of a railroad sunset

local race

I didn't think I could do it

but I tried the best I could

I wanted to be the finest

in the old neighborhood

so when I came in first

I was completely surprised

I couldn't hold my laughter

and I couldn't believe my eyes

it was just a local race

with the runners on my street

I saw twenty or more

they were mine to defeat

but I don't care about winning

running makes me satisfied

and I find there's nothing better

than when I go outside

it was hard

I was sweating

through my t-shirt and my shorts

the sun was brightly shining

that's all I will report

as some point near the end

I needed to quench my thirst

that's when I finally noticed

I was coming in first

but that means nothing

even though it was great fun

it was never my intention

to come in at number one

and now I am the winner

thanks to my running shoes

it's good to finally find out

that I don't have to lose

if I had the chance

if I had the chance

I would do what I was meant to do

I'd shine my light the whole night through

if I had the chance

if the world went my way

I would accomplish all I have inside

I would take you for a ride

if the world went my way

          but the world doesn't go

          the way you want it to

          it doesn't revolve

          around you

          it balances on circumstance

          and it doesn't care

          if I ever get the chance

if I had the chance

I would do what I was born to do

I would play all night for you

if I had the chance

if good luck was mine

I would use it all the time

I would round up the reasons and rhymes

if good luck was mine

          but the world doesn't spin

          around your hopes and dreams

          it makes its say

          with other means

          it just becomes

          another dance

          if I ever get the chance