Sunday, May 14, 2023

but I'll get it done


I've got a million chores to do
but I don't want to do them
everybody says my work ain't through
but I'm saying "screw them"
I do what I want
in my own time
the choices I make
are completely mine
I know my race is not run
but I'll get it done

I know that I've made mistakes
but I'm making up for lost time
I stand by every choice I make
and I'm making up my mind
to do the things
I need to do
bet I get finished
before you
I may be fighting for number one
but I'll get it done

          everything I ever do
          remains in my subconscious
          if it all ends before I'm through
          the speed will make me nauseous

if I don't finish up my work
it won't matter anyhow
I may seem like a jerk
but the precious time is now
I will work
I will succeed
a tiny success
is all I need
my future has not yet begun
but I'll get it done
      

Saturday, May 13, 2023

might as well be winter


it's getting out outside
but it's okay
this is just spring's impression
of a normal summer day
sun high in the sky
skies are clear and blue
the only item missing now
is the one containing you

          I know the weather's beautiful
          and fine as it can be
          but it might as well be winter
          when you're not here with me

every bird is singing
like they're glad to be alive
the afternoon is golden
I can't believe my eyes
children are laughing free
grown-ups are mowing lawns
me, I'm drinking iced tea
I wish this day would move along

          I wish this incredible day
          would somehow set me free
          because it might as well be winter
          when you're not here with me


Friday, May 12, 2023

I just wanna be you


I've got too much static inside my brain
I know that it's no use to always complain
but I've got troubles within my head
and it makes me wish I was you instead
oh, oh, oh, what am I gonna do
I just wanna be you

everything I do makes me wanna scream
there must be some way out of this bad dream
if I was you I wouldn't be depressed
I would be the man to whom you say "yes"
oh, oh, oh, I wanna be brand new
I just wanna be you

          I look in the mirror
          you know who I don't find
          someone who's exactly you
          to give me peace of mind

maybe tomorrow I'll scream and shout
and plot and plan my own way out
but until then, right here I'll stay
until I get out of my own way
oh, oh, oh, I don't have a clue
I just wanna be you


Thursday, May 11, 2023

breaking windows


I have nothing to do
so I'll find some trouble to get into
I'm feeling bad
and it's not pretty
time to spray paint
my graffiti
in my own mind
I'm a success
breaking windows
is what I do best

breaking windows
is lots of fun
the chances are
a million to one
that I'll get caught
and locked in jail
I know my brilliance 
will prevail
in my own mind
a legend I am
breaking windows
all over this land

I will improve
the local view
by painting my initials
wherever I choose
and causing trouble
and raising cain
I will destroy
and be the one to blame
in my own mind
I'm number one
breaking windows
has begun


Wednesday, May 10, 2023

when I find my place


all my life I've waited
all my life I've searched
I've wondered and I've wandered
since the moment of my birth
but it always comes up empty
filled with tears I've cried
but if I am on life's journey
I may as well enjoy the ride

tell me that I'm wanted
tell me I exist
I may not be courageous
but I will take the risk
if it means I'll have tomorrow
the future comes so fast
still, it means something to me
if I outrun the past

          put me at the starting line
          shoot the gun and let me race
          I know I will do just fine
          when I find my place

I will take my chances
I'm aching to begin
I need to be out there trying
makes no difference if I win
maybe I'll find my answers
maybe problems will be solved
all I ask of anyone
is that I will be involved

          put me at the starting line
          shoot the gun and let me race
          I know I will do just fine
          when I find my place


Tuesday, May 9, 2023

over and over again (rewrite 1)


I do the best I can
I know some people 
won't understand
but I try hard
every time
I have to work
to get what's mine
but I will succeed
I will win
because I'll start
over and over again

my heart has been broke
I know some people
think it's a joke
but it's a fact
I feel so sad
but tomorrow I
won't feel so bad
because I'm strong
and I've always been
because I'll start
over and over again

          I may try and I may fail
          but I will let the truth prevail

everything I've ever done
on my way
to the setting sun
every mistake
every traffic jam
all adds up
to who I am
I'll get there
but I don't know when
because I'll start
over and over again


Monday, May 8, 2023

fragile


how did you get so fragile
why do you think that you will break
if you say anything out loud
if you make a mistake
why do you walk on eggshells
when there's no one else around
always standing on the outside
where you'll feel safe and sound

do you ever lift your hands to the sky
without being afraid
do you ever ignore the voices
of the mistakes you've made
you know you don't have to listen
silence is good sometimes
it can help you grow stronger
it can ease your troubled mind

when you wake up in the morning
do you meet the day ahead
by analyzing every movement
you are filled with dread
but everything is up to you
in everything you see
if you work hard enough
you can set yourself free

don't be afraid of life
it's time you pulled yourself through
you are not made of antique glass
there's courage inside you
deep within your nervousness
there's someone else inside
you don't have to ask forgiveness
you don't have to run and hide

how did you get so fragile
why do you think you will break