so I can feel human again

I would like a winter wind

right about now

maybe the sun could be worse

but I don't know how

it's summer

it's August

and it's hotter than hell

take me back to the season

that I know so well

          I want a good cold breeze

          making goosebumps on my skin

          I'm waiting for summer to finish

          so I can feel human again

I would like another job

that doesn't steal my soul

I'd like the loss of my prick boss

who wants constant control

it's a living

unforgiving

it takes too much of my time

please give me the freedom

I once thought was mine

          I want to live my life

          where time can be my friend

          I'm waiting for retirement

          so I can feel human again

I would like someone to hold

through these endless nights

someone to take my loneliness

and hide it out of sight

being alone

is a danger zone

it's the place where I survive

I need to find somebody

with whom I can live my life

          I want to have a hand to hold

          a love that I can win

          I need you beside me

          so I can feel human again

this coffee cup beside me

this coffee cup beside me

is my best friend

it began the morning after

and it starts my aching head

it provides me constant comfort

and the warmth that I desire

locked in an air-conditioned building

while the flames rise higher

          this coffee cup beside me

          will warm me up again

          that's why the coffee cup beside me 

          is my best friend

the coffee cup beside me

has seen the starts of many days

each one a new beginning

that somehow lost its way

it's seen me at my best

and it's been here for the worst

never knowing if this living

is a blessing or a curse

          this coffee cup beside me

          will warm me up again

          that's why the coffee cup beside me 

          is my best friend

the coffee cup beside me

does great at what it has to do

it has one job and does it well

and rests when day is through

I'll wash it and reuse it

every single waking day

the coffee cup beside me

made from a lump of clay

          this coffee cup beside me

          will warm me up again

          that's why the coffee cup beside me 

          is my best friend

          

I remember

I am an old man

all I do is sit around

I watch the TV

I turn up the sound

my hearing is shot

my bones, they ache

and sometimes I think

it was all a mistake

but I'm still alive

a last dying ember

and I remember

I don't walk so good now

I must use a cane

I still get around

but it isn't the same

I used to explore

when I was a kid

Lord, when I think of

the things that I did

from the middle of June

to the start of September

I remember

          I remember those days

          of being a child

          I was never afraid

          and my daydreams grew wild

          I remember those days

          a young man I was

          I knew what it felt like

          to fall in love

I once had a wife

and kids numbered four

now my darling's in heaven

I hardly see the kids anymore

I sit in a home

and they treat me okay

but what I would give

for my younger days

back when time was tender

I remember

now I am here for

my remainder of days

I live on medications

in a chemical haze

but I am not sorry

for the life that I've led

I just wish it weren't ending

in a hospital bed

now it's my time to surrender

but I remember

youth and money

I've got everything I need 

except youth and money

you might think it's funny

but that's the score

I've got peace of mind

and local honey

but youth and money

I just want more and more

I remember old days

playing poker in the den

wish it would be again

I would be so rich

now I am an old man

I do what I'm told

but, man, this growing old

is a son of a bitch

I've got everything I want

except youth and money

days used to be sunny

now they're cloudy and gray

my energy is fading

and my eggs are all runny

they sit in my tummy

till the end of the day

I remember old days

everything was classic

days made of elastic

that's when I was young

now I am an old man

I'm not much of a talker

I use a cane and walker

and my songs have all been sung

I've got everything I need

except youth and money

now let me tell you, sonny

old age has arrived

I'm like Brando in the 50s

I coulda been somebody

I could have youth and money

but at least I'm alive

let me sleep

 

let me sleep

let me fully be at rest

let me sleep

that's when I behave the best

I want to dream the dreams

that have learned to hide

the ones that keep

so much inside

I need slumber that is deep

let me sleep

I'm so tired

of this being awake

I don't know

how much more I can take

I've found the conscious life

is not for me

I need a life

of pure serenity

I'm through with counting sheep

let me sleep

          I want to live my life

          as a sleepy head

          it's just so more interesting

          when I stay in bed

let me sleep

my waking life is boring

let me sleep

I want to do some snoring

and then I'll wake

and I'll be all right

once I have slept

the entire night

in slumber I will keep

let me sleep

bridges

think I'll burn a few bridges

think I'll start with you

I don't want to see your face

after all you've put me through

I've learned my lesson now

and I know just what to do

think I'll burn a few bridges

think I'll start with you

there's no use in hanging around

I've made up my mind

I'm heading out for the rest of my life

and I'm leaving you behind

I don't know what lies ahead

I don't know what I'll find

all I know is the end is near

and I believe it's well past time

          don't try to make me

          don't try to shake me

          to my senses I've returned

          I won't look for you

          I will ignore you

          there's so much that I have learned

like the way that you cheated

the times that you lied

the moments you used me

and cast me aside

but I have grown stronger

I've had to decide

that my own self esteem

will not be denied

so I'll burn a few bridges

think I'll start with you

I don't want to see your face

after all you've put me through

I've learned my lesson now

and I know just what to do

think I'll burn a few bridges

think I'll start with you

think I'll burn a few bridges

think I'll start with you

tell me I'm okay

tell me I'm okay

even if you have to lie

because the fact is I

will believe every word you say

tell me I'm all right

even though it isn't true

I need to hear it from you

please don't be quiet

          I don't believe 

          anything

          that I tell myself

          I'm so disturbed

          I need the words

          to come from someone else

tell me I am good

even though you're wrong

I need to feel I belong

like I'm in your neighborhood

tell me I exist

even if you don't want me

my words come around to haunt me

my hands turn into fists

          I don't believe 

          anything

          that I tell myself

          I'm so disturbed

          I need the words

          to come from someone else

tell me I'll survive

even if you think I can't

that is just my circumstance

that's how I live my life

I need to know today

I'm desperate and I'm sad

I've never hurt this bad

don't let me waste away

tell me I'm okay