It's a little spicy

I'm cold and depressed.

Why, farmboy?

Because it's winter and the temperature is near freezing.

And the depression?

My beautiful four-day Thanksgiving weekend is almost finished and I have to go back to my fuckin' job tomorrow.

But, you know, other than that it looks like it's all okay, unless I do something totally stupid and think about work. Which doesn't happen until tomorrow so I might as well enjoy what's left of the weekend, you know?

I know. It doesn't do any good to anticipate something you don't want to happen. And it's going to happen anyway.

Yeah. So tonight I'm just gonna stay at home and smoke some weed and eat this healthy soup I made.

What's in it?

Ground turkey, pinto beans, black beans, peppers, corn, tomatoes, California chili, curry, cumin, carrots. It's a little spicy.

Sounds good, farmboy. Cornbread?

No, unfortunately. But I've got tortilla chips.The good ones, the ones that are made locally.

Good food for a cold night.

Yep. And winter's not even here yet. Hell, fuckin' December's not even here yet.

delivery man

baby's waiting on a phone call
a knock upon the door
from the man that she needs
the one who doesn't keep score
baby shines like silver
you oughta see her walk
she don't draw no lines
when she talks that talk
baby understands
I'm the delivery man

when baby gets lonely
when baby gets the blues
she wears those fishnet stockings
blood-red high heel shoes
she's got a husband
but he's lost at sea
at least that's what
she tells me
it's news I heard first hand
I'm the delivery man

ain't this the life

the morning sun refuses to shine
and the clouds are taking over
you put your collar way up high
throw a poncho over your shoulders
you used to be so young
but every day you're feeling older 
you swear you're going to move to Hawaii
catch a plane and say a quick goodbye
free as the breeze off the ocean
cheap sandals and suntan lotion
ain't this the life

reinventing the wheel

here I am again
reinventing the wheel
do you know how it feels
to start over all the time
here I go once more
taking the long way home
exploring the great unknown
to find a place that's mine

stranger to me now (rewrite two)

I don't want to wrestle
with the past anymore
I'm going away
there's nothing to say 
I don't believe
I can last anymore
you're a stranger to me now

every dream
where my heart was at stake
is now in the past
dreams never last
I once dreamed of you
but now I'm awake
you're a stranger to me now

          everything
          falls to decay
          like a rock in the tide
          it crumbles away
          gold turns to silver
          silver turns into gray
          you are slowly
          disappearing

I don't like the man
that I once used to be 
I had no clue
when I was looking for you
there's a whole new somebody
waiting for me
you're a stranger to me now

you needed someone
to respond to your touch
one look from your eyes
could cut me to size
you were somebody
that I needed too much
but you're a stranger to me now

I don't need to wrestle
with a dead memory
I can tell you goodbye
with completely dry eyes
I don't even care
if you remember me
you're a stranger to me now
you're a stranger to me now

Answers why

Man, I'm so upset over this Michael Brown thing. You know, the young African-American man who was shot by this police officer? Well, the grand jury just let that guy -- the police officer -- off, scot-free. I'm so fuckin' disgusted. 

I agree. That's pretty terrible, farmboy. 

I mean, I just don't get it.

You and millions of other people, farmboy.

You know, you spend your whole life looking for answers why and you always come up empty.

It feels like that sometimes.

I don't know what to say, man.

I don't either.

I don't fuckin' know, man…

stranger to me now (new verse)

I don't like the man
that I once used to be 
I had no clue
when I was with you
there's a whole new person
inside of me
you're a stranger to me now