new day

I'm looking for a new day

not like yesterday or the day before

it's true I've got plenty 

but I always want more and more

I've got food to eat

a roof over my head

friends and family

what do I need instead?

I need to feel peace 

in my heart

where do I start?

very same thing

everyday I do the very same thing

very same thing

very same thing

that I do everyday

there is no up or down

right or wrong

I just accept it

as my way

so I look around

what do I see

so many people

in front of me

sometimes I need to be alone

nothing works out

no matter what happens

nothing works out

you can try your hardest

you can scream and shout

you can compromise

you can play real tough

but remember, fact is

your best ain't good enough

I do what I can

but nothing works out

everyone on earth knows

what I'm talking about

you don't stand a chance

you don't have a clue

nothing but trouble

is waiting for you

very much alive

one thing about life

is that it is fatal

but I am still very much alive

I still can feel with my heart

I still can see you

through my eyes

my life is not over

I am still here

right now

and I will live each day

although I don't know why

although I don't know how

anyway, I survive

I am very much alive

day off

I'm taking the day off

from the job of being me

I've formed a union

and we all disagree

with the way I treat myself

disregarding mental health

ignoring insecurity

so I'm taking the day off

from the job of being me

I'm turning the phone off

and I won't return your calls

your texts are all unread

and I've got some alcohol

I'm leaving yesterday behind

I need time to unwind

to finally feel free

I'm taking the day off

from the mess inside of me

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          no need to worry

          the worst thing I will do

          is eat up all the cheeze-its

          and watch endless you tube

I'll be back tomorrow

I just need a break

from all my worries

and mostly my mistakes

but for now I feel okay

drifting my life away

I once was blind, but now I see

I'm taking the day off

from the job of being me

yesterday is gone

yesterday is gone

never to appear again

so why does it still haunt me

those times of way back when

all those days of long ago

turn around and hurt me so

I've tried my best, but I don't know

the spirit that's inside me

many years have come and gone

but I still remain

you'd think that it would change somehow

but it's all stayed the same

I have tried the best I could

to turn the evil into good

I've done everything I should

and still peace denies me

          I've worked all my life

          and I'm still not done

          I want to be the man

          that I have become

all those days behind me

need to find a place to rest

all my failings remind me

that I have tried my best

all this time and I'm still not done

I'm close now to the setting sun

hoping like I've just begun

I still can't give up

even though I've had enough

yesterday is gone

but I'm still fighting

ready for snow

Christmas is here

and it's going to be a mellow one

for this year I have been blessed

with peace and acceptance

I am now ready for snow