since I've seen you

it's been so long since I've seen you

do you still remember me

am I there in your subconscious

where you don't have to see

am I lost inside your memories

where I will never be seen again

it's been so long since I've seen you

are we ever even friends

it wasn't all that long ago

when you and I were one

or at least I thought so

I thought our journey had begun

you and me and promise

all that came to an end

it wasn't all that long ago

when you and I were friends

headphones on

I got my headphones on

I got the sound up high

I'm leaving this world

I'm saying goodbye

I am not depressed

I will not complain

I just need to hear

the sound in my brain

'cause the sound in my brain

is comforting me

now my ears can hear

now my eyes can see

I don't take for granted

this life that I live

but I spend all my time

trying hard to forgive

I try freeing my past

but it's always the same

I just want to hear

the voice in my brain

'cause the voice in my brain

has made itself known

opened the front door

and made itself at home

everything is going wrong

everything is going wrong

day vs night

wrong vs right

and I don't know how I'll get along

with the forces of the world against me

yes I know it's the same old song

howl at the moon

hopelessly out of tune

I don't think that I'm that strong

all these barriers are out to fence me

nothing is going right

love vs hate

I don't appreciate

and there's not an answer in sight

the questions are there for the asking

yes I know it's the same old tune

nothing has changed

or rearranged

my mind is working hard today

there's no sense in multi-tasking

I keep pretending

I keep pretending

that you'll be coming back to me

a happy ending

is exactly what I want to see

what are the chances?

I know romance is

something you can't force to be

give me one more try

tell me I can't be denied

the right person for you is me

where we had begun (rewrite 1)

my feet stand firmly

on this cold hard ground

it feels so strange

not having you around

the days seemed endless

when we were young

I wish we could go back 

to where we had begun

I see your family

in the front row

funerals

they always go so slow

I say my goodbye

you'll always be number one

I wish we could go back 

to where we had begun

I remember those days

when we were just kids

I look back

on the mischief that we did

I never thought those days would end

like laughter on our tongues

I wish we could go back 

to where we had begun

I hang my head in sorrow

I think of way back then

I listen to the priest

and I whisper amen

a handful of dirt

and my day will be done

I wish we could go back 

to where we had begun

rejected

sometimes I wonder

if anyone who's ever rejected me

ever thinks about me

like, they're crossing the street

and they see some little thing

like a bird or a tree

or some trash on the street

and I just happen to cross their mind

just for a quick second

or maybe they don't think of me

which would be fine,

I suppose

I'm lost in the past

never to be recovered

why do I

feel rejected again?

where we had once begun

my feet stand firmly

on the cold hard ground

it feels so strange

not having you around

the days seemed endless

when we were young

I wish we could go back there

where we had just begun

I sit with my family

in the front row

funerals

they always go so slow

goodbye to you now

you'll always be number one

I wish we could go back there

where we had just begun

I remember those days

when we were just kids

I look back

on the things that we did

I never thought they would end

like the laughter on our tongues

I wish we could go back there

where we had just begun

I hang my head in sorrow

I think of way back then

I listen to the priest

and I whisper amen

a handful of dirt

and my day will be done

I wish we could go back there

where we had just begun