they don't know my dreams

they see me as an old man

a man of simple means

they think they know who I am

but they don't know my dreams

for me to see

the sky is filled with silver

and the grayness of the rain

sadness comes in like clouds

as it strikes me once again

I take my medications

I meditate and exercise

but sadness breathes inside of me

telling all its lies

          I whisper "won't you go away"

          but all it ever does is stay

          leaving me another day

          of loneliness and misery

          there it is in front of me

          only for me to see

believe my eyes

another assignment that needs to be done

another argument that must be won

sometimes I see the setting sun

and see another day ending

I had potential

I had a purpose

I had wisdom underneath the surface

but life is just another circus

where you spent your time pretending

          and the world keeps turning

          but I'm still not learning

          what it means to be alive

          I look at this planet

          and the terror within in

          and I can't believe my eyes

day off

I don't want to do anything

that needs to be done

I just want to mess around

boys just want to have fun

I don't care if the bedroom is vacuumed

I don't care if the kitchen's a mess

all I know is that doing the work

is enough to make me depressed

so I am taking the day off

where working, for me, is unknown

I am taking the day off

I am staying home

news on the TV

there is news on the TV

and I must pay attention

the world's full of atrocities

too many to mention

it's beyond my comprehension

there is news on the TV

and I must listen to what they say

it's all there in front of me

maybe I'll take off today

no, I'm gonna watch anyway

          help me out

          be a pal

          I believe I've had enough

          I just need to find a way

          to turn the damn thing off

there is news on the TV

and it's got me in its spell

it just won't let me

I watch the world go to hell

but I can't help myself

the lives of innocent people

the lives of innocent people

taken down from your war machine

will always remember you

wherever they may be

in other countries far from home

or wherever they end up alone

or whether they go on to be

another statistic for the world to see

you will pay for what you've done

your war will be never be won

lie if you have to

take me in your arms

tell me that you love me

lie if you have to

it's all right

tell me that it's real

I know that it must be

lie if you have to

get me through the night

give me a little hope

tell me I'm not stupid

lie if you have to

I need to be okay

it is all my fault

it's nothing that you did

lie if you have to

please don't go away