stay in bed

the streets are paved in silver

the sky is cold and gray

the clouds are busy raining

and all I do is complain

I want sunshine and roses

to greet me when I wake

when I get up in winter

it's usually a mistake

          all I want is to stay in bed

          blankets to keep me warm   

          and pillows under my head

I need to turn on the heater

my apartment's getting cold

the warmth I felt in summer

has gotten way too old

autumn has forgotten me

and spring is far away

the nights have become longer

and I'm missing most of the day

          all I want is to stay in bed

          with the radio to listen to

          and books I've never read

you should come back and see me

like, seven months from now

I'll be feeling fine then

the sun will show me how

and then I will be happy

and, hopefully, safe and sound

maybe I'll even be ready

when next winter rolls around

          all I want is to stay in bed

          blankets to keep me warm

          and pillows under my head

out the window

I am staring out the window

to a place I once called home

before I grew up and wandered

off to the great unknown

there was so much to look at

so much to be aware

of all the places I've been to

nothing could compare

pretending

I am pretending to be human

as much as I can

I'm pretending that I

grew up to be a man

with all my dreams unbroken

and all my faith intact

with my shoes untied

it's all just a balancing act

I am pretending I am happy

so you won't ever see

the frozen fear of silence

that I feel inside me

can you tell I'm lying?

can you tell I'm sad?

all I know is that in my life

I've never felt so bad

while I walk

while I walk

from here to there

I will not be

unaware

I will watch out

for the signs

and all the pain

I've left behind

and so I wait (rewrite 2)

all my life

I've been learning to stand in line

begging for crumbs

that others have left behind

hoping that life

does not crush me in two

but now I'm done

I don't know what to do

          and so I wait

          for something I know is mine

          and so I wait

          for something I may never find

I have hoped

that the truth will set me free

all I have

are these lies inside of me

that were told to me

so very long ago

now I'm looking around

for something else to know

          and so I wait

          for something I've left behind

          and so I wait

          for something I may never find

someday I

will see what life can be

all the purpose

I hold inside of me

but till that day

all I can do is try

I do not want

life to pass me by

          and so I wait

          for something I know is mine

          and still I wait

          for something I may never find

approaching speed

music plays in the background

but that's all I hear

all your nouns and verbs

will never meet my ears

melodies and harmonies

are all I really need

I will be ready

I'll be approaching speed

and so I wait (rewrite 1)

all my life

I've been learning to stand in line

begging for crumbs

that others have left behind

hoping that life

does not crush me in two

but now I'm done

I don't know what to do

          and so I wait

          for something I know is mine

          and so I wait

          for something I'll never find

I have hoped

that the truth will set me free

all I have

are these lies inside of me

that were told to me

so very long ago

now I'm looking around

for something else to know

          and so I wait

          for something I've left behind

          and so I wait

          for something I'll never find