job

this is my job

this is what I do to make a living

same thing everyday

that's my life

up in the morning

the day is unforgiving

everything I do

is always upright

so why am I here

there must be some kind of reason

for my daily trials

to continue this way

doesn't matter what I do

there's no believing

that my job contributes

to a better day

          everyday I do the very same thing

          very same thing

          that's what I do

          everyday I do the very same thing

          very same thing

          I will never be through

I earn my paycheck

and I deserve every last cent

for the boredom in

this factory

I pay all the bills

and I pay the rent

I just have no time left

for being me

          everyday I do the very same thing

          very same thing

          that's what I do

          everyday I do the very same thing

          very same thing

          I will never be through

just in time

I don't wish for anything anymore

I try not to hope too much

the only thing I want right now

is to experience a human touch

I am feeling so alone 

more than I've felt before

but there's nobody I can turn to

and the pain's too strong to ignore

          so tell me that you are here

          and that you'll place your hand on mine

          I promise I won't disappear

          'cause you found me just in time

I have spent my life alone

with too much time pretending

that everything will turn out fine

and I deserve a happy ending

that's not the way that life turns out

it is not black and white

it tends to stay in shades of gray

where nothing turns out right

          so tell me that you are here

          and that you'll place your hand on mine

          I promise I won't disappear

          'cause you found me just in time

you can find me if you look for me

I'm hiding in plain sight

you can see me if you try

I'm lost inside the night

I am waiting here for you

and it's here that I will stay

knowing you will come to me

in the full light of day

          so tell me that you are here

          and that you'll place your hand on mine

          I promise I won't disappear

          'cause you found me just in time

no matter the way

if I'm not forgetful

and the stars are aligned

I will use this morning

to make up my mind

if I'm coming or going

should I leave or should I stay?

I will be beside you

no matter the way

living is confusing

when you don't know where you stand

everything I claim to be

is exactly who I am

but you know I would change for you

if that's what you say

I will be beside you

no matter the way

I've fallen down a rabbit hole

of lies I've told myself

if I could, you know I'd be

like everybody else

but being here with you

makes everything okay

I will be beside you

no matter the way

I am not allergic to hard work

I am not allergic to hard work

it's just that it's no fun

I'd rather be watching TV

but there's so much to be done

just when I think I'm finished

something comes to take its place

I am not allergic to hard work

but it's better than being disgraced

I am not allergic to hard work

but hard work may be allergic to me

the floors need mopping 

but something is stopping

the worker inside me

I'd rather play on the computer

play video games as a soldier

I am not allergic to hard work

but it needs to wait till I'm sober

I am not allergic to hard work

watch out, right now I might start

to wash the dishes and notice

how they can break apart

but I know I will finish

and move on to the next task

I am not allergic to hard work

someday I'll be done at last

taking care of myself

there's so much to do

I may never get finished

my plans for the day

have greatly diminished

gotta take out the thrash

gotta wash the dishes

gotta cook some supper

healthy and delicious

I do this, that,

and something else

all in the name

of taking care of myself

there's too much to do

and it just won't wait

time to be calm

and meditate

vacuum the carpet

mop the floors

straighten the welcome mat

outside the front door

clean all the knick-knacks

on top of the shelf

all in the name

of taking care of myself

when will I be finished?

when can I take a break?

maybe starting this cleaning

was a major mistake

all of this cleaning

leaves me perplexed

maybe I'll get ready

clean the bathroom next

will cleaning help 

my mental health

it's all in the name

of taking care of myself

tomorrow in her eyes

she doesn't want to feel sad anymore

she doesn't want to cry 

life is not what it was before 

but she doesn't want to hide

she just wants to be truthful

for once in her life

because she can see the future

there's tomorrow in her eyes

she wants to know what it feels like

to be hopeful once more

she's been reaching all her life

but she doesn't know what for

she'd like to take some happiness

and try it on for size

she stares at the setting sun

there's tomorrow in her eyes

around the next corner

she will be there soon

either in broad daylight

or the light of the silvery moon

she just wants to be truthful

she can't tell herself any lies

because today is too quickly passing

there's tomorrow in her eyes

so many problems

I have so many problems

I don't know where to start

but the hardest of them all

is my broken heart

I don't know how it happened

but I know it's true

and now I'm lost and lonesome

and I don't know what to do

my heart shattered into pieces 

when you left me here

alone and so frightened

I thought I'd disappear

nothing lasts forever

those were the words you said

the words that echo soundly

inside my aching head

someday I will heal

but until that day comes 'round

I will live inside my feelings

and I will not make a sound

I will go inside myself

to hide the tears I've cried

and the pain within my heart

will not be denied

I have so many problems

and I don't know where to start

it began the day you left me

when it all fell apart

I will find a way somehow

I will make it through

I have so many problems

and they have to do with you