Tuesday, August 1, 2023

there you go


there you go
messing with my heart once again
that's what I get for calling you my friend
guess I made a mistake
I suppose
you don't believe you did me any harm
but you sure set off my smoke alarm
and it's more than I can take

          it ain't right
          how I'll cry
          myself to sleep tonight
          it ain't fair
          the way loneliness
          will catch you unaware
          that's all I know
          there you go

here I am
watching my heart run out the door
wishing I could be like once before
I guess I was wrong
but I'll be back
I'm not at the point of no return
it's one of many lessons I have learned
I will still get along

          it ain't right
          how I'll cry
          myself to sleep tonight
          it ain't fair
          the way loneliness
          will catch you unaware
          that's all I know
          there you go


Monday, July 31, 2023

one mississippi (rewrite 1)


count with me
till we reach
the edge of time
with every second
who knows what we'll find
another day of life
nears its nightly end
until the sun comes up
and it starts again

          one mississippi
          two mississippi
          that's all I know
          one mississippi
          two mississippi
          until it's time to go

life starts out
you don't remember
how it began
but somehow time
got a hold of you
and it got out of hand
and it keeps moving
forward and fast
racing through each second
until it has passed

          one mississippi
          two mississippi
          that's all I know
          one mississippi
          two mississippi
          until it's time to go

I want to spend
my time alive
exactly how I live
so much to do
in daily life
so much to take and give
let me spend my days
lost inside your love
there I will stay 
until I've had enough 

          one mississippi
          two mississippi
          that's all I know
          one mississippi
          two mississippi
          until it's time to go


Sunday, July 30, 2023

on this summer day


the cat is sleeping in the living room
like he always does
tail moving, body still
all is peaceful with his paws
and I sit in the kitchen
time is racing down the hill
I will be sleeping, too
although it's against my will

all is gentle on this day
everything's within my grasp
I feel the best I ever have
it's too bad it doesn't last
but for now I'm feeling good
if you don't count my worries
I am taking my sweet time
I am not in a hurry

          nothing is happening
          all is calm
          what more can I say?
          time to lay out
          on the front lawn
          on this summer day

when winter comes, I will be warm
if only in my memories
temperature is doing fine
low 80s and high 70s
I will take the season as it comes
to take hold of my senses
I will hold onto every day
and live in present tenses

          nothing is happening
          all is calm
          what more can I say?
          time to lay out
          on the front lawn
          on this summer day


Saturday, July 29, 2023

one mississippi


count with me
till we reach
the edge of time
till we touch the limits
that I know we'll find
another day of life
nears its nightly end
until the sun comes up
and it's day again

          one mississippi
          two mississippi
          that's all I know
          one mississippi
          two mississippi
          until it's time to go

life starts out
you don't remember
how it began
but somewhere you
got confused
it didn't go as planned
but time keeps moving
forward and fast
onward and upward
until all time has passed

         one mississippi
          two mississippi
          that's all I know
          one mississippi
          two mississippi
          until it's time to go

I want to spend
my time alive
exactly how I live
so much to do
right here on earth
so much to forgive
let me spend my final days
lost inside your love
there I will stay until my death
I can never have enough

          one mississippi
          two mississippi
          that's all I know
          one mississippi
          two mississippi
          until it's time to go


Friday, July 28, 2023

brand new day


I have a brand new day waiting for me
I think it holds my destiny
yesterday's gone, tomorrow's not here
so I'll trust whatever shall appear
whatever happens, I know it's okay
because I am in a brand new day

it's a brand new day and I'm alive
doing what it takes to survive
I do my best, I do my chores
and some days I do even more
but lately I'm a child at play
rejoicing in this brand new day

          for so long, my days contained the blues
          now today I finally know I get to choose

it's a brand new day and I am at peace
for once, the voices have declined to speak
and I will see what I've worked for so long
me and life, we're going to get along
for the first time, I get the right-of-way
and it happens on this brand new day


Thursday, July 27, 2023

someone I'm happy to meet


I've found a new way for looking at life
let me tell it to you
wake up with your eyes wide open
and pretend it's all brand new
I see the sky, I see the trees
I see cars out on the street
I look in the mirror and see myself
someone I'm happy to meet

when I look at myself through new eyes
everything's living in focus
there is no magic that I can see
I sense no hocus pocus
it's just me here and I'm alone
trying to be complete
I just make conversation with myself
someone I'm happy to meet

I don't have any look-at-me questions
I know I'm here at last
impatiently waiting for my future
while I disregard the past
sometimes it's good to be alone
standing on my two feet
I feel so strong on solid ground
someone I'm happy to meet

soon I'll see you some tomorrow
somewhere on down the line
I will be where the wind takes me
I won't be left behind
I'm betting that good luck will wait for me
my journey is incomplete
I'm my own company now
someone I'm happy to meet


Wednesday, July 26, 2023

I'm out of surgery


I'm out of surgery
the drugs have worn off
I'm all sewn back up
and been through enough
and now it's time to take it easy
to rest the whole day through
and so I made some plans
this is what I'm gonna do:

I'm gonna break out the cheetos
turn on the TV'
let mindless living
make its mark on me
maybe take a big long nap
and have a snack or two
when I'm out of surgery
that's what I'm gonna do

I've got the guacamole
I've got tortilla chips
for the love of all that's holy
don't forget the onion dip
and don't dismiss the cannabis
and it's probably not wise to drink
when you're out of surgery
you throw in the kitchen sink

and so I'm out of surgery
I woke up after all
now it's time to relax
I'm still the same old Paul
the doctor, she done fixed me up
and I am good as new
now that I'm out of surgery
I know what I'm gonna do