Return home to you

There are not enough bridges to cross/ to get to the other side/ either way I go I'm lost/ and I don't know what I'll find/ maybe I will find the one/ who'll always be true/ but no matter what I find/ I will return home to you

unprepared

take me and shake me

wake me up inside

give me a reason

I don't have to hide

help me to see

what simply is there

and I will not be

unprepared

it's night and the light

is shining so bright

that I can't focus

on what's in front of me

in the x-ray glow

of the Milky Way

I beg

why am I here today

I could be an angel

I could be an angel

I could be a saint

I know who I am

and I know what I ain't

I'm just another stranger

with a long list of complaints

I am looking for you

everything I'm feeling

always shows up in my face

no matter how hard I try

it cannot be erased

it's like it saw me and said

"this must be the place"

I am looking for you

          you don't know me

          but I can change

          I can be anyone

          you want to rearrange

I could be your brother

I could be your friend

I could be your worst fear

coming to bother you again

I can be real life

or I can just pretend

I am looking for you

or maybe I can be

exactly who I am

someone who will do anything

that I think I can

I come here in hope

that you'll understand

I am looking for you

          you don't know me

          but I can change

          I can be anyone

          you want to rearrange

I could be an angel

I can be a saint

my job

I am doing my job

I'm working as hard as I can

I am making progress

I'm starting to understand

the ways of the world

in which I live

there is not anything

I've done I wish I did

I am doing my job

is it time for a break?

sometimes my job

is just a mistake

I am spinning the wheel

toward my destiny

I know there's a special

man inside me

I am keeping my secrets

I promised not to tell

I am hiding the questions

both to you and myself

I am doing my job

is it quitting time yet

sometimes my job

is what I'd like to forget

I woke up this morning

I woke up this morning

and immediately sprung into action

I was going to stare long and hard

at the reason for my dissatisfaction

but somehow I got sidelined

and  I looked away

from the sadness and fear

of where I am today

where am I going

I asked myself at the start

am I looking for a cure

for my everbreaking heart

no I'm just searching

for a reason to be me

and I'm figuring out

what it means to be free

Christmas 2023

Christmas is here

2023

and I am home.

There was a chance I wouldn't be

but I am.

Maybe sometimes

things work out.

I am here

all I know is I am here

waiting for instructions

like I always do

being an interruption

what else is new?