Thursday, January 18, 2018

when you decided


when you decided
you didn't want me anymore
I decided you were right
and I deserved to be ignored
and so that part of me
that was a lover and a friend
knew its days were numbered
coming to an end
when you decided
when you decided
I was not needed


Wednesday, January 17, 2018

blank page


blank page
I ain't afraid of you
sitting there judgemental
like you always do
daring me to write something
heartfelt and honest
like my life has reached a crossroads
and the devil is upon us
there must be 
a hero here among us

blank page
why do you hurt me today
giving me the urge to write
with nothing to say
telling me "go on, create
something heartfelt and honest"
I look at you and all I see
is a broken promise
forgive me if I'm
a doubting Thomas

          blank page
          you must die
          I will fill each empty space
          I'm filled with rage
          here's why
          I resent the way
          you make me look at my own face

blank page
I got a brand new Sharpie pen
I ain't afraid to use it
and I know what, how and when
you dare me to find inside
something heartfelt and honest
with nouns and verbs and adjectives
and not too many commas
man, my life
has so much drama
I can't believe I'm in this haze
maybe it's just old age
but it's too hard to disengage
from you
blank page


Tuesday, January 16, 2018

voice


my skin knows how to feel
my eyes know they can see
my tongue's good at tasting
whatever it will
but of all of my senses
here's my favorite choice
I like my ears
so I can hear
your voice


Monday, January 15, 2018

on this day for MLK


old man shit-for-brains
stands outside his bank of choice
and tells me that it's closed today
in an angry and condemning voice
he says it's closed today because 
then he uses a word I won't say
it's one more sad, sad story
of this day for MLK

           I don't want to be angry
           I just want to live
           and if I witness evil 
           I want to learn to someday forgive

old man shit-for-brains
has a good day on the internet
he types in words and lines of hate
and then he dares us to forget
it's down vote everything in sight
and it's everything my way
the racist scum and the Christian right
on this day for MLK

           I don't want to be angry
           I just want to live
           and if I witness evil 
           I want to learn to someday forgive

old man shit-for-brains
stupid asshole past his prime
I'm not thinking of him anymore today
I ain't gonna waste my time
I got better things to do
better words to say
better people to listen to
on this day for MLK

           I don't want to be angry
           I just want to live
           and if I witness evil 
           I want to learn to someday forgive


Sunday, January 14, 2018

I don't want you to be honest


I don't want you to be honest
I need you to be kind
now you're just a broken promise
in a world I've left behind 
I don't want to face the truth
denial's what I choose
I don't want you to be honest
either way, I'm gonna lose


Saturday, January 13, 2018

the poison inside


the poison inside
is torturing me so much
I'm disappearing


Friday, January 12, 2018

everything's evil


everything's evil
that I put in my body
there's too little of this
and too much of that
I work and I work
and no one applauds me
while everything I eat
transforms into fat
imagine that
everything is fat

everything's evil
in which I get enjoyment
don't look, touch or read
anything from anyone
I work and I work
my fuckin' life is employment
and now everything I eat
is no fun
it doesn't matter
than happy is fatter
I'm done

          with low-carb
          and no-carb
          and carbs are the worst
          just the thought of carbs
          is enough
          to make your stomach burst

everything's evil
and I am so hungry
for flour and sugar
and deep fried cheddar cheese
I'm afraid this nutrition
just don't become me
I need to have more
than no calories
I'm down on my knees
I'm begging you please
everything's evil
I'll meet you
at McD's