I want to have a good time

 

I'm so tired of nothing happening. I feel like nothing ever changes, and that I'm the only one that goes through this. No matter what I do, no matter how hard I work, change never happens. No matter how much I play and write, it never gets any easier. Everyday I do this stuff -- I write, I play, I exercise, I try to eat correctly -- and everyday I get more frustrated.

Change can be very slow, farmboy. You'e in the process, that's why it feels like everything's taking so long. I know the work you do, and I know what you put into it...

My fuckin' heart and soul.

...your heart and soul. I know. You're a hard worker, and your heart is in the right place.

Tell me, farmboy, what exactly do you want from music?

Well, I want to have a good time. I want to enjoy the physical act of playing. I want to be part of a creative community, I want to have musical friends.

First off, farmboy, you have musical friends. You're coming off a pandemic, which means you've been isolated.

I was isolated before.

I know. Forget that. You need to unisolate yourself. Call up people. You can meet people now. Plan a day when one of your friends -- Ken, for instance -- comes over and you play music outside.

I know, I need to do that. Now that summer's approaching, there may be more opportunities to play music. I love the thought of playing music outdoors.

Sound like a plan?

I'm thinking about it.

republican Jesus

 

there is no republican Jesus/ thinking there is will not make it so/ He would not stand for your evil/ His ways are not ways you even know/ Jesus preached peace and love/ not the crap you're thinking of/ and his lessons will prevail/ but you, on the other hand/ cannot begin to understand/ the multitude of ways you have failed

concerning you

I don't want to be alone

it's in everything I try

but all these other people

keep passing me by

I'm just looking for a friend

just someone to talk

I'm bored, depressed, and lonely

think I'll take a walk

to the liquor store

my home away from home

everything feels safe there

I'm not aching from being alone

find myself a bottle

if I'm hurting, maybe two

hopefully it'll save me

from anything concerning you

ordinary day

 

it was an ordinary day/ like every other day/ I drove my daughter to school/ then I drove away/ to my job in the city/ where I worked till 5/ the weekend was upon me/ I was glad to be alive

so I went to the liquor store/ bought a six pack of beer/ walked out to my car/ without an ounce of fear/ when the officers saw me/ and came from behind/ I hadn't done nothing/ I was just passing the time

I don't want to be lonely

 

I don't want to be lonely anymore/ I want to have friends and have some fun/ I'm tired of this private little war/ I know my time with you has just begun/ days pass by and life goes on/ and I don't know what road I stand upon/ each morning I awake at dawn/ to see a new day coming

I've been gone

 

I've been gone/ did you miss me?/ I stayed away as long as I could/ this world don't do me no damn good/ but I am here right now/ I've been gone/ did you notice?/ I tried my best to stay away/ now I don't know what else to say/ except I am here right now

what can I do for you?/ I'll do anything you ask me to/ I am here at your beck and call/ I will do anything/ like eagles fly and robins sing/ I am here for you most of all

if I were to miss you

 

if I were to miss you/ would you come back/ you could give me something/ that I've always lacked/ I've been looking for love/ all of my life/ I don't know why I'd think/ I could find it tonight/ why are you hiding?/ please don't be afraid/ I've learned a lot/ from the mistakes I have made/ and with all that I know/ I won't do it again/ if I were to miss you/ would you be my friend

give me an idea

 

give me an idea/ I'll take it far as I can go/ where we end up/ nobody can know/ it's just an idea/ I have in my head/ maybe I'll think of/ something else instead/ but if you give me an idea/ I'll do what you say/ though, truth is, my friend,/ I was going to do it anyway

all the mystery/ that I have discovered/ refuses to react/ it can't be bothered/ so give me an idea/ and I'll do my best/ give me an idea/ I'll take care of the rest