turn to you

every day 

is more and more frustrating

I spend all my time

hoping and waiting

so one day passes

and then another one

with every breath

I feel my life has just begun

I don't know what I can do

this is why I turn to you

everyday

I feel the wheels inside me turn

in each one, there exists

another lesson to learn

so I learn that lesson

then another one comes along

when it comes down to it

it's the same old song

that I hear each day and evening, too

this is why I turn to you

          so show me what you've learned

          point me to the way

          everything is so hard and slow

          and still it's just another day

everyday

I do what I'm supposed to do

I'm comforted and confused

when I think of you

give me a reason

show me a sign

all I need's

a little peace of mind

the only hope that I will make it through

this is why I turn to you

this poor world

look at the headlines

turn on the news

log on the internet

whatever you choose

late in the evening

start of the day

nothing but trouble

and what can you say

          this poor world

          this poor world

          running in place

          with the human race

          this poor world

don't look at intentions

don't use common sense

no need for neighbors

erect your fence

close all your windows

lock all the doors

you're always afraid

but you don't know what for

          this poor world

          this poor world

          where we don't hide

          the evil inside

          this poor world

empty your pockets

of any sign of hope

there's nothing to do

no way we can cope

we will just sigh

say that's how it is

what's mine is yours

and yours is his

          this poor world

          this poor world

          running in place

          with the human race

          this poor world

all I really want

all I really want

is to be happy

in being myself

all my life

I have wanted to be

somebody else

and that got me nowhere

except envy 

and jealousy

and those other emotions

I still don't understand

so let me be done with it

take the yearning away

so I can finally experience

myself

in ways

I never could have imagined

I'm okay

I'm okay

nothing to see here

it's just a temporary problem

that will be over soon

I'm okay

it's just a broken heart

it'll be all tight

if you give it lots of room

to cry, complain, and moan

about living in a danger zone

trying my best from day to day

I'm okay

I'm just fine

no need for you to worry

it only takes a little time

my heart will work again

never mind

my emotions are confused

next time I'll do better

next time I'll win

this foolish game of love

but for now I've had enough

right now I need to run away

but I'm okay

beyond the clouds

I woke up this morning

to the sound of rain upon the roof

I was hoping for some sunshine

instead I got living proof

that all is gray and dismal

and all that darkness will allow

I know there is a better life

beyond the clouds

take a little caution

when you step outside today

there are problems you can't solve and

they just won't go away

people yelling all the time

in godforsaken crowds

I know there is a better life

beyond the clouds

what will happen

I am afraid of

what will happen

every day of my life

I speak in silence

like Charlie Chaplin

my words never come out right

but I keep on going

never knowing

just what will be

all I know is

whatever happens

will be happening to me

I wake each morning

to the fear

that today will be the day

that sudden darkness

is drawing near

and I can't run away

but I keep on moving

never improving

trying hard to hide

all I know is

whatever happens

I'll see it from the inside

          so what can I do?

          you just keep trying

          always denying

          the movement of days

          so what do I see?

          all of my somethings

          returning to nothing

          and there's not much left to say

I am afraid of

what will happen

every day that I've alive

toes keep the tempo

fingers snapping

but still hope is denied

but I keep on dreaming

planning and scheming

that someday I'll make it out

all I know is

whatever happens

is something to be without

another day in loserville

it's another day in loserville

and I'm late for the bus

I haven't had my cup of coffee

and the weather's making a fuss

I don't believe days like these

there's no one I can trust

I might as well go back to bed

this day has been a bust

it's another day in loserville

and my girl broke up with me

there is war all over the world

I see it on my TV

I don't mean to be negative

but bad is all I see

won't you help me if you can

I'm longing to be free

         loserville

         no one wants me around

         loserville

         that's the name of my hometown

it's another day in loserville

and I'm at my wit's end

there's no one here beside me

and I haven't got a friend

I'm looking for a one-way street

to leave this town but then

seems like anywhere I go

it's loserville again

outside the open window

outside the open window

I hear the cawing of the crows

gathered on the front lawn

after the winter's snow

crocuses are coming up

soon there'll be leaves on the trees

now it is finally spring

in all its glory to see

outside the open window

neighbors work out in the yard

digging up the top soil

where the ground was once so hard

children in their Easter clothes

old men in golfing shirts

dogs walking on the sidewalk

women in purple skirts

tell me if you love me

tell me if you love me

especially if you're sure

I'd tell you that I love you

but I'm too insecure

plus I can't stand rejection

or hearing we're just friends

tell me that you love me

time and time again

tell me you'll be with me

that you won't disappear

tell me you'll accept me

I hope you'll sound sincere

and I will say a promise

I know that I will keep

tell me that you love me

one time and then repeat

          

today

I woke up this morning

sky filled with rain

seeds of depression

planted into my brain

I take medications

I see a shrink

but that doesn't stop

all the times that I think

          but now things are different

          I don't know how

          this morning was shitty

          but it's not right now

          everything's changing

          what more can I say

          I'm glad I'm alive

          today

I try not to hate

I try not to hate

but you're making it very difficult

every time you open your mouth

you poison the atmosphere

every word you say

makes me dislike you even more

you have made your opinions

very, very crystal clear

          you and your backwards way of thinking

          you and the bullshit in your brain

          you're worse than the most spoiled child

          all you ever do is complain

I try not to hate

but you make it so damn hard

the way you think of nobody

except, of course, yourself

you curse all those around you

everybody inconveniences you

you blame every little thing

on somebody else

          I try to have compassion

          but this time compassion can't be found

          it get bad when you're on the warpath

          nobody wants you around

I try not to hate

it used to be so easy

until the exact moment

you came into my life

now I am angry

and sad and defensive

I try not to hate

but you make it all right

another day of working hard

it's another day of working hard

and it's still the same old song

I have done the best I can

and everything turns out wrong

I trip over my shoelaces

the skies are filled with rain

I can't can't seem to do nothing

but cry and moan and complain

it's another day of working hard

through the day and through the night

it's difficult to keep on going

when nothing turns out right

I've got problems deep inside of me

too many to count

maybe it's time to admit

my luck has finally run out

          but still I keep trying

          every day is new

          searching through the bullshit

          for something to hold on to

it's another day of working hard

it's so tough and rough, my friend

late at night I thank the Lord

that the day is at an end

I try to say it's all okay

and it's my right to pretend

and wait until tomorrow

when it all starts over again

I live vicariously (rewrite 2)

I live vicariously

through everyone I know

I study what they're doing

like they're putting on a show

and I pretend I'm one of them

I do it all so well

my big potential nightmare

is for me to be myself

I live vicariously

through what normal people do

all those normal days and nights

I want to have them, too

I want to travel near and far

to unknown foreign lands

but  I just can't do it

my life's made other plans

          I live vicariously

          through celebrities

          you see on TV

          I want to change identity

          to someone who I am not

I live vicariously

most of all through you

you are the person

I currently look up to

I don't want to be myself

I need to be someone else

my big potential nightmare

is for me to be myself

I live vicariously (rewrite 1)

I live vicariously

through everyone I know

I look at how they're living

how they come and go

and I pretend I'm like them

or maybe somebody else

my big potential nightmare

is for me to be myself

I live vicariously

through what normal people do

all those nights out having fun

I want to do it, too

I want to travel near and far

to unknown foreign lands

I myself can't do it

life's made other plans

I live vicariously

through celebrities

you see in Hollywood movies

and watch on your TV

I want to change identity

myself blissfully forgot

I want to live my best life

as someone who I'm not

I live vicariously

most of all through you

you are the person

I currently look up to

I would like to be someone

maybe you will work out well

my big potential nightmare

is for me to be myself

I live vicariously

I live vicariously

through everyone I know

I look at how they're living

how they come and how they go

and I pretend I'm like them

or maybe somebody else

my biggest potential nightmare

is for me to be myself

I live vicariously

through what normal people do

all those nights out having fun

I want to do it, too

I want to travel near and far

to unknown foreign lands

I may not be as good as them

but I do the best I can

I live vicariously

through all those celebrities

you see in Hollywood movies

and watch on your TV

I want to change identity

myself blissfully forgot

I want to live my best life

as someone who I'm not

I live vicariously

most of all through you

you are the person

that I look up to

I would like to be someone

you will work out well

my biggest potential nightmare

is for me to be myself

interviews

I should be doing interviews

people should care about what I say

listen to me everyday

'cause I know what I'm saying

I am a man of taste and class

I have opinions up the ass

the words I say are meant to last

there'll be no decaying

my sentences look good in print

people should read every word inside me

I have judgement for the world to see

and I am always right

I believe in the words I say

you might not want me to be this way

but I'm gonna say them anyway

I never will keep quiet

          ask me what I think

          I'll tell you what I mean

          I speak in right and wrong

          there ain't no inbetween

I should be doing interviews

people should listen to my thoughts

dying roses and forget-me-nots

as fine as they can be

don't ignore me, I'm standing here

my opinions will not disappear

in your mind I'm always near

you should listen to me

time is a thief

if I could be someone else

I would be you

as you glide through life

with your own point of view

as opposed to me

with my mistakes and my grief

and my days running out

time is a thief

I see you and I know

I have no idea of your problems

you move with such sureness

I don't know how you solved them

id you'd scratch my surface

you'd find pain underneath

with the years passing quickly

time is a thief

          you know,

          this has nothing to do with you

          it's all about dreams

          that never come true

so leave me with my envy

this living's so tough

when no matter what you do

it's just not good enough

life is only hard now

without any relief

life is a canvas

time is a thief

days left behind

we could sit around the campfire

toast marshmallows in the night

tell ghost stories and sing cowboy songs

till the sun comes in sight

life gets shorter every day

people become more unkind

we need to see more joy and loving

in the days left behind

we could all be at the kitchen table

telling stories about our youth

exaggerating childhood trouble

in between moments of the truth

it's these leftovers we consume

at banquets we will dine

we all need to hear the stories

in the days left behind

come with mr, don't be afraid

memory is our best friend

it lives inside our bone and blood

it always comes around again

let us hold on to each other

until death robs us blind

we all need to love each other

in the days left behind

today I went for a walk

today I went for a walk

I saw the trees budding

daffodils rising up

spring is certainly something

my mind is still in winter mode

where cold and rain conquer

and the threat of snow is imminent

that's how it is around here

today I went for a walk

and I saw students walking

back home from the middle school

they were joking, they were talking

I would like to be that young

with my future spread before me

like a banquet in some dining room

its food laid out before me

today I went for a walk

came back to my apartment

I banged my way up the stairs

into my home compartment

and now I type away on keys

about my short-lived journey

good thing there was no accident

I'd have to hire an attorney

better times

there will be better times

just you wait and see

someday you will reach

your destiny

whatever that may be

the road is stretched

ahead of you

and you know just

what you can do

so don't wait

don't hesitate

you know it's true

life is ready for you

happier days

I remember happier days

when I had friends who didn't go away

and places to go and people to see

but now those days have passed by me

now I spend my time at home

all by myself

alone

I remember happier times

when all my words turned into rhyme

and people provided the melody

but now there's nothing here to see

now I long for the unknown

all by myself

alone

when you keep me in mind

they tell me 

time is running out

but they don't have a clue

they just need something

better to do

than to tell me

the worst that can be

your negative thinking

has put its claws on me

and what can I do?

it's all because of you

that I even make it through

so never mind

just be kind

when you keep me in mind

rain cloud

maybe there's a rain cloud

up above your head

only you can see it

filled with worrying and dread

it hovers there above you

knows every move you make

every heartbreaking motion

every little mistake

maybe it rains on you

getting you completely wet

no reason to be angry

no reason to get upset

'cause there's one thing you've learned

as you try to get by

as long as the sun comes out

all the raindrops will dry

so don't worry about the rain

raindrops come and then they go

how it ever happens

is something you don't have to know

just know that it is coming

there's an ending to the rain

that's falling right above you

the sun will shine again

where I used to live

where I used to live

was down by the ocean

in a navytown where foghorns

moan through the night

surfboards and skate boards

move in pure motion

it's here I was a child

but I never got it right

          I keep searching

          although everything I needed

          was in my back yard

          I keep searching

          I didn't know life would be so hard

where I used ro live

I was one of four siblings

brown hair, brown skin

and the future ahead

now I am gone

I live far away now

but those dreams and hopes

will never be dead

          I keep searching

          although everything I needed

          was in my back yard

          I keep searching

          I didn't know I'd end up 

          so broken and scarred

where I used to live

I try to remember

my bare feet in the ocean

dodging the waves

now I am older

my whole life is landlocked

now there's no lighthouse

to help light the way

          I keep searching

          although everything I needed

          was in my back yard

          I keep searching

          I didn't know life would be so hard

human heart

I got problems

it's plain to see

there's a lot of trouble

inside of me 

I see your face

and the teardrops start

I'm the owner 

of a human heart

          I got a human heart

          every once in a while

          it comes apart

          you can run,

          but you won't get far

          I got a human heart

up and down

the interstate

I see love

masquerading as hate

leading the horse

behind the cart

I'm the owner 

of a human heart

          I got a human heart

          every once in a while

          it comes apart

          you can run,

          but you won't get far

          I got a human heart

long, long day

it's been a long, long day

problems come

one by one

they're always starting 

and never done

I'm afraid of all the 

problems to come

and they always come my way

it's gonna be a long, long night

I look over my life

and it just ain't right

I try to stop it

but it hides out of sight

no matter what I say

it's been a long, long day

sleeping

sleeping is what I'm best at

I'm at my finest late at night

even if it's the kind of day when

nothing ever turns out right

I sleep like puppies

I sleep like cats

all day long

it's where it's at

you may be

the company I'm keeping

but don't bother me

I'm busy sleeping

up in Heaven (rewrite 2)

you should meet me

up in Heaven

we could have a real good time

no earthly matters to concern us

while we drink that holy wine

let's set a time

to meet in Heaven

I'll meet you at the pearly gates

no human beings to bother us

it'll be fun so don't be late

let's throw a party

up in Heaven

we can invite the biggest stars

we'll see Elvis and Frank Sinatra

they all will be where we are

the food is great

up in Heaven

and plenty of it, I reckon

you can eat to your heart's desire

there'll be enough for seconds

when I see you

up in Heaven

we will finally be pure of heart

no one can stop us

in the hereafter

we don't have to be apart

so come and join me 

up in Heaven

I don't want to be alone

we'll have a good time

up in Heaven

when we reach our heavenly home

thief

I tried my hardest

I did my best

so why do I feel like a failure?

stuck inside a prison

of my own making

I, alone, am the jailer

and I am guilty

of whatever crimes you see

Lord, take the thief inside of me

I did what was needed

I played my part

so why did I end up alone?

I needed somebody

but nobody stood up

now I'm out here on my own

and I am lonely

in need of dignity

Lord, take the thief inside of me

cold cruel world

I don't want to go out

into the cold cruel world

I just want to stay at home

inside it's warm 

with no one to hurt me

outside is a danger zone

I've seen too much

and yearn to touch

the floors of my bedroom and kitchen

I've got nothing to gain

except the right to complain

I'm through with my moaning and bitching

up in Heaven (rewrite 1)

you should meet me

up in Heaven

we could have a real good time

no earthly matters to concern us

while we drink that holy wine

let's set a time

to meet in Heaven

I'll meet you at the pearly gates

no human beings to bother us

it'll be fun so don't be late

let's throw a party

up in Heaven

we can invite the biggest stars

we'll see Elvis and Frank Sinatra

they all will be where we are

the food is great

up in Heaven

and plenty of it, I reckon

you can eat to your heart's desire

there'll be enough for seconds

up in Heaven

you should meet me

up in Heaven

we could have a real good time

no earthly matters to concern us

we could drink that holy wine

let's make a date

to meet in Heaven

I will bring my silver harp

no human beings to bother us

no one will keep us apart

let's throw a party

up in Heaven

we can invite the biggest stars

all of your faves and Frank Sinatra

they all will be where we are

the food is great

up in Heaven

and you never gain an pound

what you say, come and join us

in Heaven, you'll always be around