I don't matter

so this is what happens

whenever I get sad

I must hide my feelings

even though it hurts so bad

so I will tell a joke

and smile to your face

and then quickly run

the hell out of this place

          in the long run

          I am not someone

          I don't matter

I cannot get angry

I must hold it inside

I always move slowly

with fear as my guide

no amount of love

is ever enough

so I'm crying uncle

I'm giving up

          in the long run

          not much that I've done

          I don't matter

maybe tomottow

I'll feel all right

but first I must

make it through tonight

you've hurt me so bad

I don't know what to do

except to carry on

and say nothing to you

          in the long run

          no wars have I won

          I don't matter