Monday, October 31, 2022

you're fine


stop for a second
look around and find
a moment of peace
for once, in your mind
leave all your troubles
and worries behind
you're fine

take a deep breath
open your lungs
life is as good
as when you were young
all of your stars
now are aligned
you're fine

          I know that you're worried
          I know that you're blue
          I know you have hope
          inside of you

rest for a minute
close your eyes
does a moment of peace
come as a surprise
come out and play
you know that it's time
you're fine

life can be hard
it ebbs and flows
there's something
that you should know
you don't need to panic
you'll have peace of mind
you're fine


Sunday, October 30, 2022

I can't help but believe


take me in your loving arms
and tell me it will be all right
I don't think I can make it through
this lost and lonely night
all these worries are choking me
it's hard as hell to breathe
but someday I'll be out of here
I can't help but believe

the stars are not aligning
sunlight cannot be found
my life has been completely wrong
but I stand on solid ground
whenever something goes right
it just can't be conceived
but deep inside my weary soul
I can't help but believe

every time my mind goes dark
I can't help but see
a very tiny sense of hope
rise up inside of me
it may be midnight in my soul
as far as I can see
bur someday I'll be out of here
I can't help but believe


Saturday, October 29, 2022

all right, I guess


I feel all right, I guess
life just puts me through its tests
I let my brain do all the rest
but something here's not right
so let me down and bring me up
don't stand there, get me a coffee cup
don't stop until I've had enough
I'm not gonna sleep tonight


Friday, October 28, 2022

I keep walking (rewrite 2)


the rain may fall down
the wind, it may blow
I stand on solid ground
but still I must go
I keep walking
I keep on pushing through
I keep walking
right back home to you

good luck may pass me by
it usually does
if you ask me why
I'll say just because
I keep walking
I do the best I can do
I keep walking
right back home to you

          there are trucks out on the highway
          freight trains on the tracks
          but I'll keep walking to you
          and I'm never going back

I hope that you are waiting
that you'll be there when I come
I am appreciating
where you're coming from
I keep walking
like I'm going to Timbuktou
I keep walking
right back home to you

the rain may fall down
the wind, it can blow
but I'm gonna stick around
because I love you so
I keep walking
just like I always do
I keep walking
right on home to you


Thursday, October 27, 2022

when I die


when I die
life will still go on
just like it did before
when I die
I'll have a handful of mourners
nothing more
but I will not be here
I will disappear
into the atmosphere
to stay
when I die
it will all just be another day

while I'm here
I'll try to remember
life is a true gift
while I'm here
I'll have a hanest-to-God 
chance of happiness
and of all the things I do
the one that is most true
is being friends with you
today
while I'm here
I will not throw my time away


Wednesday, October 26, 2022

it doesn't matter today


there is no sunshine
but that's okay
you shine on me
in so many ways
so I don't mind it
when the sky is gray
it doesn't matter today

the news may be bad
it usually is
I really don't care
it's just another quiz
right now I won't listen
to what it has to say
it doesn't matter today

          all those troubles and trials
          mean nothing to me now
          I'm not living in denial
          I'm taking all that life allows

neighbors may be pissed
government is mean
I'll just put these thoughts
in the pockets of my jeans
as far as I'm concerned
good times are here to stay
it doesn't matter today

there is no sunshine
but that's all right
as long as I have you
beside me at night
everything will be cool
come what may
it doesn't matter today


Tuesday, October 25, 2022

fire on the ocean


the sun sets on the Pacific
it's a fire on the ocean
I can see it through the waves
orange, yellow, and red
burning on the water
but the sun is sinking fast
soon it will be time
to head up off to bed

I see its reflection
the fire on the ocean
and it sets off a flame
deep inside my soul
of an ancient longing
to escape my surroundings
to tie up my shoelaces
and finally go

do you see it too?
the fire on the ocean
or is it only meant
for my eyes alone
for me it always meant
a time of adventure
now it only means
that I walk home alone

the sun sets on the Pacific
it's a fire on the ocean


Monday, October 24, 2022

secrets


you can tell me your secrets
I won't tell anyone else
I'll keep the information
deep inside myself
out of everyone you know
I'm the one to trust
all the secrets are hidden
somewhere in the dust

I will keep your confidences
locked inside my brain
all your shame and mistakes
you won't hear from me again
they're as good as missing
silence is the cure
I will never tell your secrets
of that you can be sure


Sunday, October 23, 2022

shut up brain


I woke up this morning
I went for a walk
all my brain did
was talk, talk, talk
telling me all
I do that is wrong
don't you know it's
the same old song
I try my best to not complain
but shut up brain

I go to bed at night
what does my mind see
four million problems
waiting for me
filled with promises
I did not keep
I'm lying down
but I can't sleep
everything's turning out the same
shut up brain

hear the cry
of the whipporwill
maybe it's time
to take a pill
or drink warm milk
from a coffee cup
damn it all!
I should just get up
this is driving me insane
shut up brain


Saturday, October 22, 2022

she's not going away


she waits for the bus
at the end of the working day
she's going back home
and she's taking her usual way
she'll unlock the door
and go on in
and do the same thing
over and over again
but that's okay
she's not going away

she has a life
but it didn't go as planned
exactly what went wrong
she doesn't understand
but she accepts it
she always does
if you ask her why
she'll say "just because"
that's what she'll say
she's not going away


Friday, October 21, 2022

make it through today


I plan ahead
I check my phone
like normal people do
but believe me when I say
I am not one of you
I'm someone you won't go to
the victim of the crime
of trying to get to know you
the tragedy is mine
what can I say?
I'm just trying to make it through today


Thursday, October 20, 2022

long hard day


it's been a long hard day
worse than it's ever been
too much reassurance
that I never will win
it happened yesterday
and then it took place again
what can I say?
it's been a long hard day

on days like these
I need my rest
what other way am I
going to do my best
no matter what I do
life puts me to the test
it's not okay
it's been a long hard day

          so I guess I'll complain
          until I make it home to you
          my problem is unnamed
          and I just don't have a clue

today has just dragged on
like a mop on a floor
sometimes I don't know
if I can take it anymore
just when I think I've had enough
it hurts me to the core
wish it would go away
it's been a long hard day

but when I come home
I'm waiting for you
and all the simple ways
you do what you do
that's when I know
I'm going to make it through
hip hip hooray
it's been a long hard day


Wednesday, October 19, 2022

let me see the ocean


walking through the fading waves
of the Pacific ocean
staring as the sun sets
across the open sea
I could stay out here forever
if I ever get the notion
the ocean is the surest place
for me to feel free

          the water keeps on rolling
          to and from the shore
          let me see the ocean
          till I can't see anymore

          

Tuesday, October 18, 2022

try again


you do what you have to do
there's no two ways about it
and no way to live without it
it's part of life
and there ain't no denying
the only way to push through
is to give yourself permission
it's the only decision
you do what you can
and you keep on trying

          and if that doesn't work
          well, you try again
          sooner or later
          good luck may kick in
          and if that doesn't work
          you did the best you could
          you did what you should
          you have done your best
          now it's time to take a rest


Monday, October 17, 2022

I keep walking (rewrite 1)


the rain may fall down
the wind, it may blow
I stand on solid ground
but still I must go
I keep walking
I keep on pushing through
I keep walking
right on home to you

good luck may pass me by
it usually does
if you ask me why
I'll say just because
I keep walking
I do the best I can do
I keep walking
right on home to you

          there are cars on the freeway
          freight trains on the track
          but I'll keep walking to you
          and I'm never going back

I hope that you are waiting
that you'll be there when I come
I am appreciating
where you're coming from
I keep walking
like I'm going to Timbuktou
I keep walking
right back home to you

the rain may fall down
the wind, it can blow
but I'm gonna stick around
there's one thing that I know
I keep walking
just like I always do
I keep walking
right on home to you


Sunday, October 16, 2022

days you remember


you woke up this morning
like it's the same old day
problems and worries
life won't go your way
so you're not expecting
anything to be good
but today's going to go
the way that it should

          one day after another
          January on through December
          does it surprise you to discover
          today's one of those days you remember

today's going to be special
you're going to fall in love
you may think you're missing something
but for once it's just enough
the world is in motion
all the stars have aligned
there's no need to worry
you're going to be just fine
           
          if true love is only a game
          this time you're a contender
          it's not a crying shame
          today's one of those days you remember

so keep on moving forward
your eyes on a wishing star
there is no better place to be
than exactly where you are
and when you go to bed tonight
you'll be grateful and amazed
miracles do come true
and it's coming true today

          a fire's burning in your soul
          like a flame's burning ember
          today good luck will take control
          today's one of those days you remember


Saturday, October 15, 2022

back to you


          whichever way I go
          whatever I may do
          every road that I walk down
          leads me back to you
          no matter what I feel
          I don't care what I go through
          every road that I walk down
          leads me back to you

I was lost for a while
the country I did roam
searching for some reason
looking for a home
after all this time
there's one thing I know
now that I've found you
I'm never going to let you go

          whichever way I go
          whatever I may do
          every road that I walk down
          leads me back to you
          no matter what I feel
          I don't care what I go through
          every road that I walk down
          leads me back to you

all my life pain and heartache
are the rules that I live by
but now that you're here
those old rules don't apply
I've opened up my heart
now I know just what to do
I no longer have to walk
on the road to feeling blue

          whichever way I go
          whatever I may do
          every road that I walk down
          leads me back to you
          no matter what I feel
          I don't care what I go through
          every road that I walk down
          leads me back to you
              

Friday, October 14, 2022

I keep walking


the rain may fall down
the wind, it can blow
the sun may beat down
but still I must go
I keep walking
I keep on pushing through
I keep walking
right on home to you

the news may be awful
it usually does
if you ask me why
I'll just say because
I keep walking
I do the best I can do
I keep walking
right on home to you

          there are cars on the freeway
          freight trains on the track
          but I'll keep walking to you
          and I'm never going back

I hope that you are waiting
that you'll be there when I come
and I'm never looking backwards
at where I'm coming from
I keep walking
like I'm going to Timbukto
I keep walking
right back home to you

          there are skateboards on the sidewalk
          and scooters on the street
          neither one of those
          I never hope to meet

the rain may fall down
the wind, it can blow
with everything around me
there's one thing that I know
I keep walking
just like I always do
I keep walking
right on home to you


Thursday, October 13, 2022

surrounded by angels


all of my life
I've been surrounded by angels
protecting me
from the voices in my head
lifting me
from the worrying and dread
I've felt all my days
it's more than right
when you're surrounded by angels
pushing me on
beyond what I see
believing I matter
believing what I can be
with faith that leaves me amazed

          with all the good I've left undone
          why am I the lucky one

life can be good
when you're surrounded by angels
people who care
even if they don't know you
still standing there
not looking below you
sheltering you from the cold
life is what it should be
you're surrounded by angels
following you
wherever you travel
if you think you're seeing
your life unravel
undoing all the lies you've been told

          all this good I don't understand
          I am a wealthy man


Wednesday, October 12, 2022

what am I supposed to do now?


I started out fine
but it got worse from there
when the news hit me
I shook my head unaware
before you left me
I knew that you would
our lives together
added up to no good
now I have the blues
only you would allow
what am I supposed to do now?

it was your only decision
to set me free
but I gave no permission
I didn't agree
you just left me stranded
out here on my own
with no place to go
destination unknown
now I must stand alone
but I don't think I know how
what am I supposed to do now?

the only question
I'm asking of you
is won't you inform me
that the words aren't true
I should have predicted
our love wouldn't last
I don't know the future
I'm ignoring the past
I watch as you're taking
your final bow
what am I supposed to do now?


Tuesday, October 11, 2022

every newborn day


every newborn day
another chance to start over
this time you'll be sober
your intentions are good
maybe you'll be okay
there's no need to be alarmed
maybe this time's the charm
you always knew that you could
and if it doesn't happen
there's nothing to say
you start over every day
and each day after that
maybe if you keep trying
someday you'll succeed
and you'll meet every need
it depends on where you're at
it's going to happen anyway
every newborn day


Monday, October 10, 2022

nobody remembers me (rewrite 2)


I used to live here
once upon a time
I think of the friends
I used to call mine
now there's loneliness
where joy used to be
nobody remembers me

long, long ago
before I grew old
I had a future
a story untold
so far away
that I could not see
nobody remembers me

          I once had a life
          filled with good times and friends
          I would do anything
          to have that again

I once was a young man
I had promise and proof
of a life of fast fortune
in the days of my youth
where have my dreams gone
now they're history
nobody remembers me

now the days still to come
are finally here
and my final minutes
are following near
it will not be long now
until I am free
nobody remembers me
nobody remembers me


Sunday, October 9, 2022

another day


I wish it was another day
I've had enough of this
wasting all my precious time
it's always hit or miss
so let the night come calling
let dreams fill my head
I've had too much of today
it's time to go to bed

if it was another day
I could start all over 
maybe get it right this time
try to get to know her
maybe I wont be lonely
maybe love will come my way
maybe I will drown in sorrow
maybe I will be okay

          every day turns out the same
          and I'm the only one to blame
          good luck just won't let me in
          nothing to do but try again

take me to another day
where something will go right
I am tired of waiting through
each lost and lonely night
with every minute I lose all my hope
that much is clear
I wish it was another day
I guess it's getting near


Saturday, October 8, 2022

nobody remembers me (rewrite 1)


I used to live here
once upon a time
I think of the friends
I used to call mine
now there's loneliness
where joy used to be
nobody remembers me

long, long ago
before I grew old
I had a future
a story untold
and it was so far away
that I could not see
nobody remembers me

          I once had a life
          filled with good times and friends
          I would do anything
          to have that again

I don't know what happened
now I am alone
thinking too much
about people I've known
where have they gone
now they're history
nobody remembers me

now I am old
and there's no one around
friendship and love
are nowhere to be found
I'm locked in myself
and I'll never be free
nobody remembers me
nobody remembers me


Friday, October 7, 2022

nobody remembers me


I used to live here
once upon a time
I think of the friends
I used to call mine
now there's loneliness
where joy used to be
nobody remembers me

my heart now is empty
for the people I knew
where did they go
did they run off to
a future so fine
that I cannot see
nobody remembers me

          I once had a life
          filled with good times and friends
          what I would give
          to see that again

but those days have passed
and I am alone
thinking too much
about the people I've known
why have they gone
now they're history
nobody remembers me

now I am old
and there's no one around
friendship and love
are nowhere to be found
I'm locked in myself
and I'll never be free
nobody remembers me
nobody remembers me


Thursday, October 6, 2022

unsatisfied


I'm so unsatisfied
I'm sick of being myself
I would do anything in my power
just to be somebody else
so I'm going by another name
I'm changing the way I look
my voice will never be the same
I'm no longer in the phone book
and the new me will be better
than the old me never was
if you ask me why I'm doing this
the answer is "just because"
I can never be
who I was before
I am not that person anymore

I'm so unsatisfied
it's been a long, long time
since I've had excitement
in this poor life of mine
and so there'll be some changes made
I can't live my life like this
my smile is a masquerade
there's so much that I miss
but those days are over now
the new me is a success
the old me would whine and moan
but the brand new me says "yes!"
I can never be
who I was back then
I can't be that person again

I'm so unsatisfied
but that is changing soon
yesterday I was hiding away
tonight I howl at the moon
and I'll learn to take my chances
whether right or wrong
no matter what the dance is
I'll do my best to go along
my long past days are over
never to be seen again
they'll be there in my memory
those days of way back then
but I will never be
who I was before
I am not that person anymore
I am not that person anymore


Wednesday, October 5, 2022

rambling


I don't know who I am anymore
I don't recognize myself
there's something going wrong here
with my mental health
all my ups are falling down
and I am sinking deep
there must be somewhere out of here
maybe I can fall asleep

but sleep doesn't come
when you want it to
the night has too much
worrying to do
and I have worried
all my days
it seems to never
go away

          so bundle me up
          send me to bed
          so I can face
          the day ahead
          all that is
          in front of me
          are things that I
          don't want to see


Tuesday, October 4, 2022

time's closing door


you know who I used to be
before age took control of me
I was young and free then
before the years added up
and time started to consume me
and all of those who knew me
told me I was a good man
but it still wasn't enough

          help me remember
          for the rest of my days
          the wonders of youth
          which has long gone away
          help me remember
          what went on before
          before I opened
          time's closing door

I walked the straight and narrow
and I did my best to follow
but fear and worries found me
and threw me to the ground
and now you find me here
doing my best to disappear
I look around for your faces
but I don't see you around

          help me remember
          for the rest of my days
          the wonders of youth
          which has long gone away
          help me remember
          what went on before
          before I opened
          time's closing door


Monday, October 3, 2022

railroad sunset


I am looking at the world
through a window on a train
I see houses and gas stations passing
there are children out playing
and neighbors awaiting
and strangers who can't help laughing
it's the beginning of evening
with moms cooking supper
in a summer we soon will forget
I ride on this train
where all that remains
is the end of a railroad sunset


Sunday, October 2, 2022

local race


I didn't think I could do it
but I tried the best I could
I wanted to be the finest
in the old neighborhood
so when I came in first
I was completely surprised
I couldn't hold my laughter
and I couldn't believe my eyes

it was just a local race
with the runners on my street
I saw twenty or more
they were mine to defeat
but I don't care about winning
running makes me satisfied
and I find there's nothing better
than when I go outside

it was hard
I was sweating
through my t-shirt and my shorts
the sun was brightly shining
that's all I will report
as some point near the end
I needed to quench my thirst
that's when I finally noticed
I was coming in first

but that means nothing
even though it was great fun
it was never my intention
to come in at number one
and now I am the winner
thanks to my running shoes
it's good to finally find out
that I don't have to lose


Saturday, October 1, 2022

if I had the chance


if I had the chance
I would do what I was meant to do
I'd shine my light the whole night through
if I had the chance
if the world went my way
I would accomplish all I have inside
I would take you for a ride
if the world went my way

          but the world doesn't go
          the way you want it to
          it doesn't revolve
          around you
          it balances on circumstance
          and it doesn't care
          if I ever get the chance

if I had the chance
I would do what I was born to do
I would play all night for you
if I had the chance
if good luck was mine
I would use it all the time
I would round up the reasons and rhymes
if good luck was mine

          but the world doesn't spin
          around your hopes and dreams
          it makes its say
          with other means
          it just becomes
          another dance
          if I ever get the chance