brand new history

I'm looking for 

a brand new history

I know one exists 

inside of me

a happy childhood

with lots of joy

a job I like

where I'm employed

a wife and kids

a life of ease

where I did

what I pleased

there's a lot of world to see

when you've got a brand new history

I'm looking for 

another past

where pleasure exists 

and bad news doesn't last

where nobody cheats

or bullies you

and no one tells you

what to do

and no one hits you

of their own free will

and problems remain

standing still

and good times will always be

inside my brand new history

           time is a concept

           that doesn't do any good

           where life never goes

           the way it should

I am looking for reasons

to change the way I am

some say it's not possible

but I don't give a damn

I just want to start over

this life that I live

with chances to take

and people who forgive

I just want to start over

I'll say it again

I know it won't happen

but I'm still asking when

can a person like me be free

I need a brand new history