I was left out of Christmas

I was left out of Christmas
forgotten
I was denied Christmas
I don't deserve Christmas
why can't I have Christmas like all the real children?
I am being punished 
I am never getting this Christmas back again
I hate the world
I hate my life
I hate myself
I didn't get to have Christmas
like other people
and I am just supposed
to fuckin' accept it and move on
but I can't
all I can do is hurt
I was left out of Christmas
forgotten