when I get lonely 2

when I get lonely
I talk to myself
hopefully there's no one around
to my imaginary 
someone else
I'm sending out serious sounds
we discuss the world
we talk about life
we smoke lots of weed
in the middle of the night 
when I get lonely
I talk to myself
I'm my only friend

when I get lonely
I drink lots of wine
the cheap stuff from Trader Joe's
I try to pretend
my pain can be denied
but it's everything I know
so I pour one glass
then I pour two
then a few more
to carry me through
when I get lonely
I drink lots of wine
I'm my only friend

when I get lonely
I pity myself
you don't want to be around me
I nag and complain
with the worst mental health
that you could ever see
but at some point when 
I know I can't win
I find some way
to start over again
when I get lonely
I pity myself
all I need is a good friend