moving out

back when those old songs were new

that's when I first remember you

walking on the sidewalks of your old hometown

you always felt like you didn't belong

it took years to realize people were wrong

everyone around you let you down

well, those days are gone for good

you're the pride of the neighborhood

and everyone knows what you're about

you've finally aged enough to find

the real thief is inside your mind

and now you think it's time for moving out

find a city far from home

out there in the great unknown

your future is there and waiting for you

it's time for some place to call your home

a one bedroom apartment of your own

somewhere for yourself that's damn near new

get a job in your chosen trade

watch the strangers on parade

maybe even try to make some friends

I don't know nothing, who can say

if maybe love will come your way

but there's no way you're doing this again

          you'll come home for Christmas

          a fact that you cannot conceive

          maybe you'll think man, I miss this

          but you still can't wait until you leave

bright lights, big city: it's waiting for you

lots of fun and trouble to get into

absolutely nothing like your old hometown

you spend each day pursuing night

you convince yourself it's all right

it's your choice you're always running around

but late at night, when you're all alone

those memories summon you back home

a false impression of common ground

but false impressions never last

and the future's always going fast

there's not any peace to be found

go back to your subways, back to the streets

back to the strangers you never will meet

you are safe here, never you mind

tomorrows come and tomorrows go

watch out above, look out below

you'll pay it all no never-mind

one day you'll go back in time

and your history is what you'll find

all those times that you thought you forgot

but for now, you're far away from home

living in the twilight zone

hoping and pretending you won't get caught

wherever you're coming or going, you'll never know

the gravity of what you've left behind

one way trail

nobody's doing anything

they shouldn't ought to do

everything is going just fine

there must be a reason

for all of what I have gone through

it's taken up enough time

please believe me

don't deceive me

I am on a rocky road

I am on a one way trail

and I've hit the motherload

bullet in a gun (rewrite 1)

I am a bullet in a gun

and I've been waiting for you

you don't suspect anything

and I've got a job to do

there's a line I will follow

that goes straight to you from me

where justice will be known

and I will be set free

you don't know I'm here

you can't tell anyone

I am a bullet in a gun

I am the means of revenge

for the deeds that you did

there is no place to go

that is safe to keep hid

I am serious as moonlight

I will take you like a thief

my only job to do

is to give someone else relief

the dawning of the day

turns into the setting sun

I am a bullet in a gun

there is nowhere to run to

there is no way to hide

you are with me at this moment

and I will not be denied

and when all of this is over

you'll be lying on the ground

they will search for a reason

but it never will be found

and I will be the winner

when all is said and done

I am a bullet in a gun

bullet in a gun

I am a bullet in a gun

and I've been waiting for you

you don't suspect anything

and I've got a job to do

there's a line I will follow

that goes straight to you from me

then justice will be known

then I will be set free

you don't know I'm here

you can't tell anyone

I am a bullet in a gun

I am seeking revenge

for the deeds that you did

there is no place to go

that is safe to keep hid

I am mysterious as moonlight

I will take you like a thief

my only job to do

is to give someone relief

the dawning of the day

turns into the setting sun

I am a bullet in a gun

there is nowhere to run to

there is no way to hide

you are with me on this journey

and I will not be denied

and when all this is over

you'll be lying on the ground

they will search for a reason

but it never will be found

and I will be the winner

when all is said and done

I am a bullet in a gun

judgement

I am waiting for judgement

for the sins I have committed

I hope they will go easy on me

this is my first time

maybe I'll be acquitted

maybe I'll be found guilty

but here I am

hands in my pockets

waiting for your decision

hungry for justice

afraid of division

it's my day of judgement

soon I will be there

I hope for forgiveness

I pray you'll be fair

you got this

when you feel like a loser

when life won't let you in

and you feel like the bad times

are coming again

give me a call

send me a text

I'm curious about

what you're going to do next

          you got this

          it's easy as cake

          you will learn

          from every mistake

          you got this

          it's easy as pie

          good times are coming

          there's no need to cry

every day I go out walking

every day I go out walking

exactly like I'm supposed to do

one step after another

with holes in both my shoes

but I never see

what's in front of me

for me it's just a chore

but once in a while I think

there must be something more

I never see the sunshine

or the flowers or the trees

my mind is lost complaining

or living in fantasy

I never feel the weather

even though it's crystal clear

all I want to do is be

some place other than here

I feel every footstep

I try to do my best

although all I really need

is an afternoon of rest

maybe I should pretend

I'm in the great unknown

but I never feel better

until I'm safely home

but still I keep on walking

like a dog without a leash

though I'd rather be out lying

on a big towel on the beach

but walking is good for me

and for my body, too

take it from one who knows

that walking's good for you

I don't trust anybody (rewrite 2)

I don't trust anybody

but I'll make an exception for you

because you never holler at me

the way that other people do

I look at everyone

they haven't got a clue

so i've always done

just what I've had to do

I don't trust anybody

but I'll make an exception for you

I don't believe anybody

but I see the truth inside your eyes

i don't know if this is happy

but I think I'll try it on for size

I've rallied my defenses

I've thought the whole thing through

I'm coming to my senses

i know now what to do

I don't trust anybody

but I'll make an exception for you

I don't trust anybody (rewrite 1)

I don't trust anybody

but I'll make an exception for you

because you're never talking at me

the way that other people do

the folks I see around

they haven't got a clue

so i've always done

what I've had to do

I don't trust anybody

but I'll make an exception for you

I don't know anybody

who really knows who I am

they argue with me

but now I don't give a damn

because things are improving

for once, life is fair

it seems when I'm losing

that's the moment you're there

I've rallied my defenses

I've thought the whole thing through

I'm coming to my senses

i know now what to do

I don't trust anybody

but I'll make an exception for you

I don't believe anybody

but I see the truth inside your eyes

I don't know if I'm happy

but I think I'll try it on for size

walk with me into tomorrow

do not leave me behind

all I do is keep on looking

only you know what I'll find

you tell me that I'm not forsaken

you speak the words I know as true

I don't trust anybody

but I'll make an exception for you

I don't trust anybody

I don't trust anybody

but I'll make an exception for you

because you don't talk at me

the way that other people do

they tell me that I'm worthless

that I'm broken deep inside

when you talk to me, I realize

those other voices are telling lies

they may think they're important

but they haven't got a clue

I don't trust anybody

but I'll make an exception for you

I don't know anybody

who believes I have any worth

I could search the whole world over

I could trample around this earth

but you, you are different

I'm not used to life being fair

but it seems that when I'm losing

that's the moment you are there

I've rallied my defenses

I've thought the whole thing through

I don't trust anybody

but I'll make an exception for you

          all my life people have informed me

          that I don't belong

          but you tell me they have the wrong story

          everything they say is wrong

I don't believe anybody

but I see the truth inside your eyes

I will follow where you lead me

there is no way I'll compromise

follow me into tomorrow

do not leave me behind

all I know to do is keep on looking

only you know what I'll find

you tell me that I am not wretched

you speak the words I know as true

I don't trust anybody

but I'll make an exception for you

Ventura avenue

I was walking on Ventura avenue

looking for someone to hold on to

waiting for my ship to sail

biting off my fingernails

in my mind all I could see

was you walking away from me

so I walked down Ventura avenue

all by myself looking for someone new

I thought I saw you across the street

our eyes met but we didn't meet

I was thinking what could I do

and then I saw it wasn't you

but still my journey was not done

I pictured you in everyone

so I walked down Ventura avenue

I said I wasn't, but I'm looking for you

to believe in me (rewrite 2)

I didn't mean to be a failure

but somehow I turned out this way

I didn't mean for this to happen

I tried my best to meet the brand new day

I thought I met the new horizon

but there was nothing there to see

the only way for you to help me 

is to believe in me

maybe I could have tried harder

maybe I could have been someone else

maybe I followed the wrong instinct

it's so damn hard to be yourself

I have lived my entire life

like there was someone else to be

the only way for you to help me 

is to believe in me

          as I stand on the road not taken

          your spirit's all I need

          tell me I'm not forsaken

          I will follow anywhere you lead

I want to see some hope for me

I need to see it in your eyes

I've got to find out the true story

all I know is only lies

yesterday's gone and I have to carry on

despite my wretched history

the only way for you to help me 

is to believe in me

to believe in me

I didn't mean to be a failure

but somehow I turned out this way

I didn't mean for this to happen

I tried my best to meet the brand new day

I thought I met the new horizon

but there was nothing left to see

the only way for you to help me 

is to believe in me

maybe I could have tried harder

maybe I could have been someone else

maybe I followed the wrong instinct

it's so damn hard to be myself

I have lived my entire life

like there was someone else to be

the only way for you to help me 

is to believe in me

          as I stand on the road not taken

          your spirit's all I need

          tell me I'm not forsaken

          I will go wherever you may lead

I want to see some hope for me

I need to see it in your eyes

I've got to find out the true story

all I know is only lies

yesterday's gone and I have to carry on

despite my wretched history

the only way for you to help me 

is to believe in me

figure it out

I'm in trouble again

I haven't felt this bad since God knows when

and I think I'm at the end of the line

I don't think I'll make it

God only knows if I can take it

but I know it'll turn out fine

but for right now

it's panic time

time for my mind to twist and shout

I don't know how I will

but I'll figure it out

up in Heaven (rewrite 4)

you should meet me

up in Heaven

we could have a real good time

no earthly matters to concern us

we'll just drink that holy wine

let's set a time

to meet in Heaven

I'll see you at the pearly gates

no lousy humans to bug us

it'll be fun so don't be late

          so come join me up in Heaven

          I don't want to be alone

          we'll have a good time up in Heaven

          when we reach our eternal home

we'll throw a party

up in Heaven

we'll invite the biggest stars

we'll see Elvis and Frank Sinatra

John Lennon will play the guitar

the food is great

up in Heaven

and plenty of it, I reckon

you can eat as much as you want

and there'll still be enough for seconds

          so come join me up in Heaven

          it's no fun without you

          we'll have a good time up in Heaven

          when our time on earth is through

when I see you

up in Heaven

we will finally be pure of heart

no one will stop us

in the hereafter

we won't have to be apart

there'll be lots of music playing

there'll be shindigs and fun galore

it's all one great big reunion

tell me, who could ask for more?

          so come join me up in Heaven

          I don't want to be by myself

          we'll have a good time up in Heaven

          'cause it's a whole lot better than hell

I should have been

I should have been smarter

I should have been rich

I should have known better

instead of living like this

I've made my mistakes

and they're more than a few

and now I'm still looking

to find something new

I should have been handsome

I should have had skills

that help me with living

that help pay my bills

I should have had talent

I should have had brains

instead of living a life

that is always the same

          

change on me

everything was different today

my schedule was off-course

it's like I can't see any trees

and all I see is the forest

why can't everything be the same

why am I the one to blame

everything must have a name

and I'm not the man in charge

          don't change on me

          I beg of you 

          don't change on me

          we both can disagree

          but don't change on me

up in Heaven (rewrite 3)

you should meet me

up in Heaven

we could have a real good time

no earthly matters to concern us

we'll just drink that holy wine

let's set a time

to meet in Heaven

I'll see you at the pearly gates

no lousy humans to bother us

it'll be fun so don't be late

          so come join me up in Heaven

          I don't want to be alone

          we'll have a good time up in Heaven

          when we reach our eternal home

we'll throw a party

up in Heaven

we'll invite the biggest stars

we'll see Elvis and Frank Sinatra

John Lennon will play the guitar

the food is great

up in Heaven

and plenty of it, I reckon

you can eat to your heart's desire

there'll be enough for seconds

          so come join me up in Heaven

          it's no fun without you

          we'll have a good time up in Heaven

          when our time on earth is through

when I see you

up in Heaven

we will finally be pure of heart

no one will stop us

in the hereafter

we don't have to be apart

there'll be lots of music playing

there'll be shindigs and fun galore

it's all one big reunion

who could ask for more?

          so come join me up in Heaven

          I don't want to be by myself

          we'll have a good time up in Heaven

          it's a whole lot better than hell

if you had stuck around

if you had stuck around

you would have seen a brand new world

with problems gone and flags unfurled

you would have seen a better place

if you had stuck around

you could have shared your daily bread

slaughtered the devils inside your head

seen a smile on your own face

          I remember you sometimes

          and sadness creeps into my soul

          your presence here is underlined

          and it has nowhere to go

if you had stuck around

you would have seen a lot of love

finally, you might have had enough

and your sorrow would have been past

if you had stuck around

you would have seen the daffodils in bloom

you would have your guitar in tune

playing those country songs at last

          I remember you sometimes

          I hear your voice in harmony

          with tenderness undefined

          and living in your poetry

if you had stuck around

you wouldn't have done what you thought you must do

self destruct out on the avenue

an end no one could see

if you had stuck around

you would see your family and friends

you would have felt your heart again

you could have been glory bound

if you had stuck around

          

all that surrounds you

all that surrounds you

is blessed today

the people around you

are more than okay

the air is clear

and the sky is blue

and one thing more

it's all for you

rejoice

in everything you do

it's good that you are living

when the magic comes

when the magic comes

I will try not to be late

I will be ready

for anything that comes 

I will not wait

I have been waiting

over and over again

for such a long time

waiting for the magic

that I know is mine

and when it comes

I will be so happy

the time has finally arrived

the one thing

that makes me feel alive

and I am good here

safe within my magic

waiting for me

the only feeling

that will someday set me free

generic

all my emotions are generic

everyone feels the way I do

I am nobody special

in fact, I mean nothing to you

but that doesn't stop me from crying

there's no ending to me feeling blue

which is why I'm in this building

I feel so sad, I never knew

all my good qualities are generic

I'm only one of a whole lot more

we're all acting the same now

just like we did before

but I want to be one of a kind

the only one on planet earth

I always knew I was special

from the moment of my birth

to see me through

take me in your arms

and hold me close

help me feel safe

when everything

is closing in

I long for your embrace

say the words you need to say

tell me it's going to be okay

I can't wait another day

for you

to see me through

come to me in dreams

and help me sleep

comfort me with touch

all my life

I've yearned for love

I've never had enough

don't leave me waiting here

bad times need to disappear

I've had too much pain and fear

I need you

to see me through

what makes you weird?

what makes you weird?

you can tell me

I won't tell anybody else

all those secrets

that you're holding

they just make you yourself

all those people

around the world

make strangeness a career

I'm asking you

to tell me true

what makes you weird?

I thought you 

were normal

shows how much I know

I can see through

your disguise

I'm seeing where you go

all those costumes

you've been wearing

now they've disappeared

it's living proof

to tell the truth

what makes you weird?

          tell me what you want

          a debutante

          that's what I see in you

          I'm seeing who you are

          a rising star

          who doesn't have a clue

what makes you weird?

tell me everything

you won't tell other folks

all those secrets

you've been hiding

ain't nothing but a joke

I am looking

but I'm not seeing

the cards you're holding near

I want to see

if you're like me

what makes you weird?

 

help me, someone

I didn't mean to get addicted

but something happened and I did

I tried to shake it off my back

but every time I slid back in

now I've surrendered to it

this is my life from now on

I was testing trouble and I knew it

now I don't have the strength to go beyond

          help me, someone

          I'm right here

          my problems do not

          disappear

          the ending has come very near

          and I don't know what I'm doing

I started many years ago

it looked like fun, and that's what I wanted

I didn't think it would come to this

but now my feeble brain is haunted

I can't move east and I can't go south

I can only stand in one place

unheard prayers come from my mouth

emotions somehow unerased

          help me, someone

          here I am

          I'd help myself

          but I don't think I can

          there's so much I don't understand

          and I don't know what I'm doing

so please don't follow in my steps

don't go the way I'm moving

I could work the whole damn day

but nothing seems to be improving

I'll go back to what I do

my God-forsaken crime

this is all I have tio choose

I've left myself behind

          help me, someone

          I'm on bended knee

          I can't believe what's happening

          is happening to me

          I try to do the best I can'

          now it's too dark to see

          and I don't know what I'm doing

flyover states

I was driving through the flyover states

when I made my biggest mistake

in feeling I maybe could trust you

walking down a lonely avenue

you know me, I'm shy and scared

and always somewhat unprepared

all through it, I was so aware

of you

I was driving through the flyover states

I took the time to appreciate

all that life had laid before me

usually life tries to ignore me

you know me, I've been waiting so long

trying to weigh the right from wrong

I always end up where I belong

with you

          now there's no denying

          whatever I do

          I'm going to keep on trying

          though something inside me is dying

          and I don't know what it is

I was driving through the crossover states

thinking I have what it takes

to make it through this world of woe

you have told me where to go

you know me, I'm hurting inside

regretting all the times I've tried

to find the love that I can't hide

from you

hometown

I don't think about my hometown

it stays in the past

where my dreams didn't last

it's a good hometown but

it tears me apart

keeps breaking my heart

it reminds me of what I once had

it makes me sad

to leave it alone

younger days are now long gone

I carry on

not thinking about home

but chances are I might

I'm thinking about my hometown tonight

I don't blame my hometown

it treated me right

when I captured its sight

but I can't go back to my hometown

although I left it behind

before I knew about time

flat land, salt and sea

they reached out to me

but I refused to listen

every now and then

I don't have to pretend

I know what I'm missing

but still I stay quiet

I'm thinking about my hometown tonight

start the healing

I don't know what I'm doing here

looking for comfort 

where I can't find it

the signs of doubt are very clear

no way to never-mind it

I look around for a helping hand

but no one can understand

the loneliness I am feeling

all the excuses

all the pain

all the hope that doesn't remain

is there a way to start the healing?

some dreams

they tell me dreams come true

I haven't made up my mind yet

reading about celebrities

who perform on my TV

nobody will ever forget

me, I've had a million dreams

some of them still live on

but none of them have answered me

there is nothing here to see

most of them are past and gone

          all I need is a little hope

          to get me through the night

          I don't see anything happening

          but that doesn't mean

          it's not in sight

some dreams are still alive

and I don't know if that's good

they're still active in my brain

I try not to complain

but all have been misunderstood

          all I need is a little hope

          to get me through the day

          I don't see anything happening

          but that doesn't mean

          it's gone away

If I was someone else

if I was someone else

could you love me

the way that I love you

I've searched the whole world over

and no one else will do

I've tried to be myself

and we both know how that's turned out

if I was someone else

would I be the one you live without