help me, someone

I didn't mean to get addicted

but something happened and I did

I tried to shake it off my back

but every time I slid back in

now I've surrendered to it

this is my life from now on

I was testing trouble and I knew it

now I don't have the strength to go beyond

          help me, someone

          I'm right here

          my problems do not

          disappear

          the ending has come very near

          and I don't know what I'm doing

I started many years ago

it looked like fun, and that's what I wanted

I didn't think it would come to this

but now my feeble brain is haunted

I can't move east and I can't go south

I can only stand in one place

unheard prayers come from my mouth

emotions somehow unerased

          help me, someone

          here I am

          I'd help myself

          but I don't think I can

          there's so much I don't understand

          and I don't know what I'm doing

so please don't follow in my steps

don't go the way I'm moving

I could work the whole damn day

but nothing seems to be improving

I'll go back to what I do

my God-forsaken crime

this is all I have tio choose

I've left myself behind

          help me, someone

          I'm on bended knee

          I can't believe what's happening

          is happening to me

          I try to do the best I can'

          now it's too dark to see

          and I don't know what I'm doing