blessing or a curse

I can't do it
anymore
waking up like I did yesterday
and the day before
nothing ever changes
unless it's for the worse
so I'll stay here in bed
am I a blessing or a curse

I can't do it
what can I say?
all my get-up-and-go
has gone away
in this contest of pain
I know who's placing first
asking that old question
am I a blessing or a curse

          I know there's a world out there
          but it's got nothing for me
          all the good people I have seen
          laugh as they ignore me

I can't do it
hard as I try
and all I hear
are excuses why
nothing will happen
nothing ever works
I look in the mirror 
am I a blessing or a curse