too

I am too stupid
I am too fat
I am too this
I am too that
I am too sad
I am too proud
I am too brown
I am not allowed
to be too happy
to be too well
I am too fucked up
to be myself
what do I do?
where do I go?
I am too dumb
I do not know

I say bad things
about myself
because I am not
somebody else
everything I am
is not enough
to gain control
of human love
it is not good
to be me
find somebody else
you want to be
where do I go?
what do I do?
I do not know
but I make it through