I am not going to think about

I am not going to think about
how blood-red the sun was
as it sank into the sea
I am not going to think about
all the times you sacrificed 
for a loser like me
I am going to think 
in terms of facts and figures
I have a loaded gun
and I can pull the trigger
but I am not going to think about
all the things 
I would or would not do
I am not going to think about 
what I'm thinking of you