Return home to you

There are not enough bridges to cross/ to get to the other side/ either way I go I'm lost/ and I don't know what I'll find/ maybe I will find the one/ who'll always be true/ but no matter what I find/ I will return home to you

unprepared

take me and shake me

wake me up inside

give me a reason

I don't have to hide

help me to see

what simply is there

and I will not be

unprepared

it's night and the light

is shining so bright

that I can't focus

on what's in front of me

in the x-ray glow

of the Milky Way

I beg

why am I here today

I could be an angel

I could be an angel

I could be a saint

I know who I am

and I know what I ain't

I'm just another stranger

with a long list of complaints

I am looking for you

everything I'm feeling

always shows up in my face

no matter how hard I try

it cannot be erased

it's like it saw me and said

"this must be the place"

I am looking for you

          you don't know me

          but I can change

          I can be anyone

          you want to rearrange

I could be your brother

I could be your friend

I could be your worst fear

coming to bother you again

I can be real life

or I can just pretend

I am looking for you

or maybe I can be

exactly who I am

someone who will do anything

that I think I can

I come here in hope

that you'll understand

I am looking for you

          you don't know me

          but I can change

          I can be anyone

          you want to rearrange

I could be an angel

I can be a saint

my job

I am doing my job

I'm working as hard as I can

I am making progress

I'm starting to understand

the ways of the world

in which I live

there is not anything

I've done I wish I did

I am doing my job

is it time for a break?

sometimes my job

is just a mistake

I am spinning the wheel

toward my destiny

I know there's a special

man inside me

I am keeping my secrets

I promised not to tell

I am hiding the questions

both to you and myself

I am doing my job

is it quitting time yet

sometimes my job

is what I'd like to forget

I woke up this morning

I woke up this morning

and immediately sprung into action

I was going to stare long and hard

at the reason for my dissatisfaction

but somehow I got sidelined

and  I looked away

from the sadness and fear

of where I am today

where am I going

I asked myself at the start

am I looking for a cure

for my everbreaking heart

no I'm just searching

for a reason to be me

and I'm figuring out

what it means to be free

Christmas 2023

Christmas is here

2023

and I am home.

There was a chance I wouldn't be

but I am.

Maybe sometimes

things work out.

I am here

all I know is I am here

waiting for instructions

like I always do

being an interruption

what else is new?

Today I was supposed to go home

 Today I was supposed to go home/ I did everything to make it so/ today I was supposed to go home/ why it didn't happen I don't know/ I was supposed to go home today/ like all my dreams they've gone away/ today I was supposed to go home

Today I was supposed to go home/ I'm alone in a hospital room/ today I was supposed to go home/ now I won't be leaving soon/ why this happened I don't know/ I'm a prisoner/ I can't go/ I have nothing left to show/ today I was supposed to go home

I prayed to you

I prayed to you/ and you never answered/ what did I do wrong/ I put my faith in you/ but you didn't listen/ what did I do wrong/ I did everything that I could do/ I told myself that I'd pull through/ I prayed to you/ I prayed to you

Why did you desert me/ in my time of need/ what did I do wrong/ this time the pain/ is too strong to believe/ what did I do wrong/ why do I have to go through this alone/ instead into the fire I was thrown/ today I was supposed to go home/ I prayed to you/ I prayed to you

Today I was supposed to go home/ today I was supposed to go home/ today I was supposed to go home

How can I believe in you/when you don't hear me/ what did I do wrong/ why won't you let/ anybody near me/ what did I do wrong/ I'm alone as I can be/ there's nobody around to see/ the wretched mess you've made of me/I prayed to you/I prayed to you

Today I was supposed to go home

I don't want to get up

 I don't want to get up/ I want to lie in bed all day/ I'm under the blankets/ and it's here I'm gonna stay/ I don't want to get up/ I want to waste the day away

It's raining outside/ the rain is falling down/ and here in bed/ I am safe and sound/ it's raining outside/ I want to stay on dry ground

I don't need a shower/ I want to be dry/ away from those raindrops/ falling out of the sky/under the blankets/ that's where I'm going to stay/ alarm clock/ get out of my way

I don't want to get up/ let me lie in bed/ I want to lie here/ with the pillow under my head/ I don't want to get up/ I just wanna sleep instead

I'll take the risk

 I don't know what will happen/ if I've found the real thing/ love is so much more/ than a silver wedding ring/ I'm hoping you're my soul mate/ you're someone I have missed/ and when it comes to loving you/ I'll take the risk

It's natural to be afraid/ when love is what's at stake/ but I've had my share of loneliness/ and it's more than I can take/ if I had the money/ I'd spend hand over fist/ 'cause when it comes to loving you/ I'll take the risk

(chorus) I'll take the risk/ I'll take the risk/ I've had my fill of heartbreak/ my fair share of loneliness/ but I know that you are different/ I've never felt like this/ 'cause when it comes to loving you/ I'll take the risk

Don't leave me broken hearted/ give this guy a chance/ I want to discover/ a real life romance/ I don't know about tomorrow/ but I know that time is brisk/ and when it comes to loving you/ I'll take the risk

I'll take the risk/ I'll take the risk/ I've had my fill of heartbreak/ I will not second guess/  I'll take the risk/ I'll take the risk/ finally I've got a chance/ to find true happiness/ 'cause when it comes to loving you/ I'll take the risk

Save a place in Heaven

 Lord, save a place in Heaven/ for those who do the work/ of helping other people/ when their lives get hurt/ for those who aid the homeless/ the injured and the weak/ for those who stand for justice/ who are unafraid to speak

When I get home

 When I get home/ I'm going to brew a cup of coffee/ pick up my guitar/ and play, play, play/ I will eat cashews whole/ and smoke a bowl/ and watch my blues melt away/ I will sleep in my own bed/ and dream my sweet dreams/ and create all/ my own ways and means/ when I get home/ I will do what I please/ when I get out of this hospital

When I get home/ I will look out my window/ and gaze at the sky/ at the harvest moon/ I will eat my own food/ if I'm in the mood/ I pray that it's happening soon/ I will write in the morning/ and rest in the night/ and be grateful/ for my sense of sight/ when I get home/ it will all be all right/ when I get out of this hospital

When I get home/ I will always be thankful/ for all of the blessings/ that come my way/ I won't take for granted/ the seeds that are planted/ in short, I am feeling okay/ please don't let me stay here/ in this world I have known/ where all of my hope/ is always on loan/ I want to feel better/ I want to go home/ when I get out of this hospital

Never enough love

 There is never enough love/ no matter how I try/ it hides in the shadows/ and it passes me by/ my heart's always empty/ it just won't fill/ if love never works/ then nothing else will

There is never enough peace/ I hold in my mind/ serenity goes/ and it leaves me behind

Afterthought

 Do you recognize me/ I used to belong to you/ once upon a time/ but now that time is through/ can you remember me/ do you think of me sometimes/ or am I a careless memory/ that you left behind/ I know I still think of you/ more often than not/ I am just an afterthought

I am not invisible/ I am here before your eyes/ why does my appearance/ come as a surprise/ I know you've forgotten me/ I am not on your mind/ I am just somebody/ that you can't even find/ I know this is impossible/ I thought I'd give you one last shot/ I am just an afterthought

I will not cross your mind again/ your heart will not recall/ our history together/ you don't think of me at all/ sometime in the future/ save a thought for me/ I know I'm in there somewhere/ inside your memory/ when I start thinking about you/ that's when I get caught/ I am just an afterthought

Step one

 I am back to step one/ I'm starting all over again/ just when I thought/ I was going to almost win/ but plans went awry/ and mistakes were made/ and I know I'm/ the one to blame

I am back to step one/ it's sad and it's true/ just when I thought/ I was making it through/ a new beginning/ is exactly what I need/ I'm not any good/ at keeping up speed

I know I should forgive myself/ it would be better/ if I was somebody else

I am back to step one/ it's so frustrating/ I'm tired of working/ and tired of waiting/ this life I live/ it's no damn fun/ I'm starting all over/ I'm back to step one

I had an idea

 I had a idea/ it formed in my mind/ but then I forgot it/ and I couldn't find it again/ so I kept on looking/ I couldn't leave it behind/ but it was gone, gone, gone/ like the chilly winds in summer/ like a heat wave in December/ I had an idea/ but I don't know what it was

Bookmark

Think of me as your bookmark/ something you'd find at the library/ a piece of construction paper/ I am yours for free/ I will be where you need me/ I will be cautious and true/ I will be your bookmark/ I will hold your place for you

You can't depend on human beings/ standing on solid ground/ they always leave you wanting/ they will let you down/ but I am loyal and honest/ judgement is not on my mind/ I will be your bookmark/ I will not let you fall behind

I will take this moment/ save it for future use/ and you will remember/ you will not be confused

I enjoy being your bookmark/ it's my job and I am good/ I will provide a break/ just like a bookmark should/ and if you ever lose me/ you should have no fear/ I will be your bookmark/ I am always here

While I climb this mountain

 While I climb this mountain/ I will take a look around/ at the people underneath me/ living their lives safe and sound/ I will remember every face/ I'll remember every voice/ I'll remember what life was like/ before I made my choice

While I climb this mountain/ I will think of those I love/ and how they've influenced/ all that I think of/ I will look back on my memories/ every single one/ they will pull me through this journey/ of where I have begun

Life is hard/ and life is tough/ but I can never get enough

While I climb this mountain/ I will remember you/ and how you've helped me on this path/ of what I'm going through/ life will take a hold of you/ and put you through the test/ while I climb this mountain/ I will do my best

Today I am hopeful

 There is so much trouble/ it's hard to believe/ I'm afraid that life/ has something up its sleeve/ but today feels different/ there's no reason to grieve/ today I am hopeful

After all this rain/ the sun is shining through/ and today I know/ exactly what to do/ I will keep my head up/ although I have no clue/ today I am hopeful

I don't know why/ life is giving me a break/ but I will take it/ joy is never a mistake

I will do what I can/ to keep feeling this way/ there's nobody to question/ and even less to say/ all I know is my life/ is finally feeling okay/ today I am hopeful

Over the hill

 Back in the old days/ when technology was new/ the future had a plan/ and it was waiting for you/ and you greeted the day/ with a smile on your face/ little did you know/ soon you'd be out of place 

Back in the old days/ you lived for today/ never believing/ it would ever go away/ you were so young then/ now it's a surprise/ the world has changed/ right before your eyes

Time moves swiftly/ time moves fast/ nothing in this world/ is ever meant to last/ times keep changing/ it will not stand still/ one day you're climbing/ now you're over the hill

Back in the old days/ promise was yours/ but time moves onwards/ you can be sure/ now it's a new day/ this world can be cold/ but it's still worth something/ even if you are old

Time moves swiftly/ time moves fast/ nothing in this world/ is ever meant to last/ times keep changing/ it will not stand still/ one day you're climbing/ now you're over the hill

Grateful

 I remember every act of kindness/ that strangers have done for me/ but I haven't been as grateful/ as I know I should be/ but today I am thankful/ for this hospital bed/ that keeps me safe and sound/ as I live inside my head

Thank you for the mercy/ you show me everyday/ today I am grateful/ for the kind words that you say

Millie

 Millie is waiting for her life to begin/ she's tired of thinking that she'll never win/ doing everything over again/ she's ready for a change/ Millie dreams of a future to come/ a brand new day under the sun/ her old life is finished and done/ there's nothing to rearrange

And everyday Millie gets older/ the world grows colder/ but still she goes on/ dreaming the dreams of a distant tomorrow/ there's nothing to borrow/ in search of the dawn

Across the river of Jordan

 Once upon a time/ I was once like you/ young and full of energy/ there was nothing I couldn't do/ but youth fades like the twilight/ and whispers in the wind/ and now I'm just an echo/ of who I was back then

Take me, time, and shake me/ wake me from my dreams/ soon I will be traveling/ across the river of Jordan

A man grows old and tired/ when his time has almost come/ time to look in wonder/ at the world where he came from/ but it's been a good life/ with blessings that abound/ I'll meet you over yonder/ where all is safe and sound

Take me, time, and shake me/ wake me from my dreams/ soon I will be traveling/ across the river of Jordan

In this hospital

 In this hospital/ there are lots of machines/ hands are clean/ out of date time magazines/ in this hospital/ time moves on/ from dark till dawn/ until it's done/ and you are a patient here/ have no fear/ they take care of you/ they do what they're supposed to do/ you are safe here/ in this hospital

I am not lost

 I am not lost/ but I am searching/ to find my direction back home/ I am tired/ but I will not stop/ till I'm out of the unknown/ if you need me/ I will be there/ back in your memory/ I am not lost/ but I am searching/ for a way to be free

Feet keep moving

Feet keep moving/ forward and through/ but feet keep moving/ that's what feet do/ they've got a job/ they do it well/ where they're going/ only time will tell

Brain keeps working/it spins its wheels/ it doesn't care/ what you feel/ it only reports/ back to you/ whatever you/ are going through

Your body works/ in mysterious ways/ look inside yourself/ it's working today/ and whether you go/ or if you stay/ your body is working/ anyway

Today I am missing

 Today I am missing/nobody knows where I am/there's so much I want to tell you/but you may not understand/today I am missing/send out an message fast/maybe an all points bulletin/I don't know how long I'll last

Retirement age

 When you gave up the road/ you didn't let go of your music/ and it keeps coming out/ it's something you can't help/ words tumble out in new designs/ with time as an illusion/ melodies gather around like little kids/ it's a way to calm yourself

And now you dream about an audience/ you dream about a stage/ everything is harder/ when you reach retirement age

One more thing

 One more thing/I don't appreciate being told/that it appears I'm on my way/to finally growing old/when it comes to trouble/I've finally had enough/I will never grow up

And another thing/I need to say/I am standing my ground/I will not go away/I am having a drink/from the loving cup/I will always be thirsty/I will never grow up

Another day

When all is dark and dreary/and your dreams aren't coming true/and there's no rest for the weary/what are you going to do/you can shake your fists at the sky/curse the world and its ways/or you can let it go by/and try again another day

famous people (rewrite 2)

famous people

all know one another

they're not like the others

they're not unknown

famous people

appear in the headlines

the reason for deadlines

they're never alone

they have fans and they have fun

looking out for number one

they always know just what to do

wouldn't you like to be famous?

famous people

say what they mean

from online magazines

they stare at you

famous people

smile beautiful smiles

but after a while

it gets harder to do

always standing tall and pretty

futures voted by committee

strategies to pull you through

wouldn't you like to be famous?

famous people

they are not you

no matter what you do

that's why they're stars

famous people

we think they're above us

they may say they love us

but that won't get us far

but still you wish that you were in

part of a group you've never been

someone you wish you knew

wouldn't you like to be famous?

cooking with gas

you got a shot of tequila

and a bottle of wine

and a mouthful of something

that tastes like turpentine

hurry up

time's moving fast

now we're cooking with gas

you've learned your lessons

as well as you can

and no one around you

will ever understand

that soon these problems 

won't last

now you're cooking with gas

empty-handed

I am not empty-handed

I brought a bottle of wine

people seem to like me okay

even though I barely talk

I am feeling anxious

a few drinks and I'll feel fine

and if you see me drunk

chances are I can't walk

greeting card

I am a greeting card

I'm being sent to you

because that's the thing

us greeting cards do

I can say happy birthday

merry Christmas as well

when you're a greeting card

there's so much to tell

you may think I'm corny

when you read what's inside

but I am sincere

I have nothing to hide

I say what I mean

and I mean what I say

I'm here to celebrate

your special day

maybe it's your birthday

or the fourth of July

but whatever the reason

I will not pass you by

I am a shining moment

I am not a snob

I can make you happy

because that is my job

I am a greeting card

and I know what to do

I'll make today better

you won't feel blue

life may be trying

and life can be hard

I will try to make it easier

I am a greeting card

Thanksgiving 2023

today was Thanksgiving

it all went great

every single bite

I did appreciate

like I did the company

with whom I spent this day

I am so thankful

for what has come my way

perfect groom/perfect bride

give me a second

I'll be right there

I just gotta brush and comb 

my disappearing hair

then I will be

right by your side

the perfect groom

with the perfect bride

we are not young

we are old

and still we don't do

everything we're told

you love me

and I love you

there's only one thing

left to do

let's get married

I know we can

our kids may never

understand

but love exists

no matter your age

in the book of love

we're turning the page

so give me a second

I'm ready to go

where the future leads us

somewhere we don't know

and we will be happy

you know it's true

we were made for love

me and you

I am waiting

I am waiting

like I normally do

for one of

my dreams to come true

all this waiting

plays tricks with my head

I should do 

something else instead

take me

shake me

make me work

instead of just waiting

like just another jerk

I am waiting

it's my natural stand

to complain about

everything at hand

instead of doing

what I need to do

like making the changes

that I need to

move me

don't confuse me

just use me up

I can do good

if I'm worked up enough

I am waiting

like I do every time

there is a need

that's indivisibly mine

someday I won't wait

I will get things done

all of my worries

every one

I'll be working

not hurting

flirting with success

I am through waiting

I will do my best

hope

all I need

is a cup of hot coffee

an open window

and a pocket of dreams

to make me happy

to give me peace

to let me know nothing

is quite what it seems

          I still have hope

          at least for today

          that there are some things

          that will go my way

          I still have hope

          I do believe

          that life has something

          up its sleeve

all I need

is a constant companion

someone kind and gentle

to keep me company

one who won't cheat

or leave me abandoned

that's the way

I want it to be

          I still have hope

          at least for today

          that there are some things

          that will go my way

          I still have hope

          I do believe

          that life has something

          up its sleeve

all I need

is something to hope for

to know that tomorrow

is not beyond my reach

to know a trust

that can't be ignored

a spirit that lives

inside of me

          I still have hope

          at least for today

          that there are some things

          that will go my way

          I still have hope

          I do believe

          that life has something

          up its sleeve

there is nothing

there is nothing in my mind

that I hope to ever find

all that I have left behind

reminds me of you

there is nothing in my heart

that contains the missing parts

so I'm left alone to start

feeling blue

what can I do?

there is nothing left to hope

all I try to do is cope

I ask my heart and it says "nope

not that way"

there is nothing I can do

to create my own way through

for a chance of seeing you

I'd start today

what would you say?

          there must be some way

          to stop these troubled thoughts

          I feel like a criminal

          who's begging to be caught

there is nothing in my life

to compare to your eyes

I am not telling lies

only the truth

there is nothing but my soul

and it's trying to gain control

only you can make me whole

you know it's true

there is nothing for me

but you

like nobody's business

she could sing like nobody's business

she could make your mama cry

she moved mountains as she bore witness

to her savior up above the sky

she would sing like an angel

from a whisper to a scream

she could sing like nobody's business

with a voice out of a dream

she could take you to heaven

in God's everlasting arms

to see the miracles within

to keep you safe from harm

she would offer understanding

for whatever may go wrong

she could sing like nobody's business

with the spirit in her song

she would sing of God's love

she would tell His story

her song would always rise above

pure, in all its glory

she was a true believer

in the Lord she relied upon

she could sing like nobody's business

and her memory will live on

there is no way to know

there is no way to know

what the future might bring

we can try to imagine

but it doesn't change anything

the days come in

and the days go out

and nobody knows

what they're really about

there is no way to know

if love really exists

it doesn't matter how many

people you have kissed

you can strive for love

you can stop and start

but nobody knows

what's in somebody's heart

I am a comedian

I am a comedian

and I am not funny

but I can do crowd work

better than most

I'm paying my dues

and I'm earning the money

I tour this whole country

from coast to coast

I am a comedian

my writing is abysmal

but I am good looking

enough to not care

my crowds take Klonopin

and Pepto-Bismol

to put up with

my humor out there

          I can make you laugh

          if your standards are low

          there is no limit

          to how bad I can go

I am a comedian

you should like me

for my charm and my face

and the words I have spoke

I may not be as funny

as you hoped I might be

but I am a comedian

let me tell you a joke

 

tomorrow comes quickly

tomorrow comes quickly

faster than you think

today will pass

and will not last

longer than you can blink

tomorrow's always coming

it's up around the bend

and just when you think it's over

it comes around again

tomorrow comes quickly

you would not believe

the magic tricks time

has got up its sleeve

you're here one minute

you're somewhere else the next

and nothing ever works out

the way you expect

tomorrow comes quickly

you better not be late

it's got more to do

inside of you

than you can appreciate

no matter the time

it's never enough

tomorrow comes quickly

the sun's coming up

settle for less

when I was young I knew everything

I knew exactly what was happening

I knew the facts and figures, too

there was nothing that I couldn't do

that's how it was, as I recall

now I feel like I know nothing at all

now that I'm grown I see the mistakes

all the trouble I used to make

as well as the mistakes I make today

you'd think by now they'd have gone away

I don't know what I think I did

I try to keep my ignorance hid

          when I was young I was so smart

          I thought with my own brain and heart

          now I've learned to second guess

          but I don't want to settle for less

when I was young I knew a lot

there was meaning behind every thought

now I'm lucky to be thinking clear

that there must be somewhere out of here

where I can know what I used to know

I'm not looking for it, though

          when I was young I was so smart

          I thought with my own brain and heart

          now I've learned to second guess

          but I don't want to settle for less

you don't know what you'll find

bad news comes in like a hurricane

like a criminal on a passenger train

all the good times that remain

are fading out of sight

you cannot wait until it ends

worry is your closest friend

it's just that old bad news again

looking for a fight

          you don't have to listen

          ease your worried mind

          you don't have to ask permission

          you don't know what you'll find

bad news gets a hold of you

and it knows exactly what to do

it tells you things that are untrue

and won't admit their lies

it can't tell you where to go

or even say look out below

sometimes all you know

is not to compromise

          you don't have to listen

          ease your worried mind

          you don't have to ask permission

          you don't know what you'll find

moment in the sun

you always search for something

no matter how old you get

there's too much to remember

and too much to forget

you're always waiting for something

but it hasn't happened yet

but still you keep trying

you're worried about the future

you're afraid of the past

you're just looking for something

that you think is going to last

you feel like an actor

that has sorely been miscast

but still you're not denying

          all you need is a moment in the sun

          all you need is a moment in the sun

you think about tomorrow

with a frown upon your face

you'd like to cancel your subscription

to the whole human race

thinking about a history

that cannot be replaced

though that doesn't stop you from trying

so in the morning you'll wake up

cursing that you're you

but you'll do everything

you know you should do

no matter what happens

you'll make it through

of this there's no denying

          all you need is a moment in the sun

          all you need is a moment in the sun

I will remember what to do

I woke up early

I stayed up late

my fatigue I don't appreciate

so today I don't feel so great

I'm tired as can be

last night I had a jug of wine

it tasted just like turpentine

I thought I was doing fine

then I remembered I was me

this is how it always goes

one day fast, one day slow

sometimes I think all I know

is nothing at all

I'd like to be a big success

but my future's anybody's guess

all I have is one request

please don't let me fall

          somebody help me up

          my own strength is not enough

          if you do I promise you

          I will remember what to do

life is just a trampoline

an image from a movie screen

up and down and in-between

it's yours alone to see

I could use some hope, I guess

the secret to my happiness

right about now I must confess

it's a hard job being me

          somebody help me up

          my own strength is not enough

          if you do I promise you

          I will remember what to do

you can't touch me (rewrite 1)

you can't touch me

I've erased you from my mind

I could search all of my memories

but it's you I cannot find

I've burned all of your letters

thrown your photographs away

your name is strangely absent

from all the words I say 

I have looked inside my soul

and set my own self free

you can't touch me

all your best intentions

won't do you any good

they will not affect me

the way you think they should

your words are all uneven

they disappear like dust

it's the truth -- I thought of you

as someone I could trust

now I believe it's time

for you to let me be 

you can't touch me

          I am someone 

          you will never see again

          I can't believe 

          I considered you a friend

someday in the future

if you should come around

I will keep all I remember

buried underground

and you won't affect me

I will not run in fear

I will only tell myself

that you are not here

a thought of you is only 

a waste of memory

you can't touch me

before you were born

before you were born

life was still complicated

you just don't remember

because you weren't here yet

everything was possible

nothing was yet validated

so much would happen

that you would forget

before you were born

your mom met your dad

they fell in love

while the spring was in bloom

they built themselves a future

that's all that they had

and then sooner, not later,

birth came and brought you

          time moves slow but fast

          nothing ever seems to last

before you were born

you couldn't even read

you depended on your parents

for nearly everything

and if you were lucky

they gave you what you needed

there was so much joy and pain

that this new life would bring

          time moves fast but slow

          but it's the only time you know

before you were born

you could not be aware

of the love and the glory

life laid ahead for you

it's all very simple

you don't have to be scared

you're all full of instinct

you know what to do

come on, brain

come on, brain

work for once

I'm giving you a second chance

I'm betting you

can work it out

in the right circumstance

come on, courage

you're needed now

a whole lot more than ever before

please do not ignore me

I've forgotten

way too much

help me to remember this

there is more to living life

than simply trying to exist

come on, faith

I need you here

sleeping on my floor

please do not ignore me

I need all

the strength I have

now in the nick of time

every seed that I have planted

I will accept as mine

come on, brain

do the stuff

you used to do before

please do not ignore me

please do not ignore me

right now

right now I need some sweet inspiration

I need something to happen to help me see

I know that I can be a little impatient

but there is so much love inside of me

right now I need to hold on to something

I need someone to help me through the storm

you might think I'm a good-for-nothing

but I'm as innocent as the day I was born

right now I could use a helping hand

to guide me where I believe I belong

a mental push to help me understand

that life doesn't always end up wrong

love got lost

I thought I had it made

showgirls on parade

attention will be paid

no matter the cost

but along the way

love got lost

I thought I knew everything

it comes and goes like early spring

I'm reaching for the golden ring

but I got double crossed

and somewhere down the line

love got lost

          love got lost and I can't find it

          I can't seem to never mind it

          I'll have to underline it

          love got lost

I thought i was Mister Cool

mistaking and shaking the whole day through

now I know just what to do

to make it through across

and as I was moving

love got lost

now you are home (different song)

you don't have to worry anymore

life won't be what it was before

all your thoughts and plans

are not made of stone

you don't have to be afraid

of all the choices you have made

you are not alone

now you are home

there are no rules to obey

good luck is coming your way

happiness and sanity

are now what you own

everything is crystal clear

endless as the atmosphere

there is joy yet to be known

now you are home

          now you are home

          now you know just what to do

          now you are home

          where love waits for you

so walk up the sidewalk

open the door

there will be pleasures and treasures

and more

you are no longer

in the danger zone

you can finally take a breath

now it's time for you to rest

you can feel it in your bones

now you are home

now you are home

remember me?

I used to live here 

a long time ago

gone is the life

that I used to know

20 years in prison

is a long, long time

especially when you

have committed no crime

can you point me the way

to South 21st

I never will know

if it's a blessing or curse

to start completely over

to finally be free

all I know is prison

got the best of me

you don't need to worry

I'm a peaceful man now

I could use all the help

anyone could allow

I got on this greyhound

destination unknown

threw me to the side and said

"now you are home"

I need no revenge

I just want some peace

some logic behind

my well worn beliefs

my body is tired

I've been put to the test

I need a minute to pull it together

but now I must rest

my memory

I remember every mistake that I've ever made

every moment I've wasted on my life on earth

this is why my memory can't be trusted

my memory doesn't know that I have worth

sick again

I'm sick again. Had a temperature yesterday, went to the doctor, life is overwhelming. Feel a little

today, though, as long as I don't do much.

stranger

call me on the telephone

send me a text

I just want to be warned

of where we're going next

I don't do well with sharp turns

adventure means nothing to me

I need you to tell me

what exactly I will see

I know I'm a stranger

I go through this life untouched

I can take care of myself

thank you very much

of every word I've ever heard

of everything I've seen

it is 100 percent a blessing

to be a human being

take me to your hiding place

shelter me with love

I know I can depend on you

when the going's getting rough

I want to understand things

that only you would know

I will still be waiting

when it's time to go

when is it my turn

I've been waiting forever

I can't wait anymore

I'm searching for a key

to unlock the door

to my heart

I don't think it works

unless there's a chance

of me getting hurt

I've been waiting forever

but I can't seem to learn

when is it my turn

there must be a reason

for my loneliness

but whatever it is

is anybody's guess

my heart is locked

no one can get in

God knows I've tried

over and over again

there must be a reason

I know will stand firm

when is it my turn

          can you help me

          I'm lost and cannot see

          the obstacles that stand

          inside of me

I have been lonely

since the day I was born

solemn and scared

and feeling forlorn

tell me I'm foolish

tell me I'm wrong

but most of all, tell me

that I belong

my time's speeding by

and I am concerned

when is it my turn

I went to the movies

I went to the movies

but I didn't see

anybody 

who looked like me

the actors were good looking

no one was a slob

I guess being good looking

is the main part of their job

I went to the movies

to see other folks

fall in love

and tell each other jokes

perfect bodies

and perfect health

and not a single person

like myself

          where am I on the big screen?

          am I a bad example of a human being?

I went to the movies

but you were not there

I couldn't find you

you could be anywhere

or maybe you're perfect

and just taking a break

or maybe you figured out

I was just a mistake

I went to the movies

I could not be found

on the silver screen

being Hollywood bound

so here I will stay

without a friend or a lover

waiting in vain

to be discovered

you can't bother me

you can't bother me

I've erased you from my mind

I could search all of my memories

but it's you I cannot find

I've burned all of your letters

threw your photographs away

your name is strangely absent

from all the words I say 

I have looked inside my soul

and set my own self free

you can't bother me

all your best intentions

won't do you any good

they will not affect me

like you think they should

your words are all uneven

they disappear like dust

I can't believe I thought of you

as someone I could trust

I think about how it's time

for you to leave me be

you can't bother me

          I am someone 

          you will never see again

          how can I believe 

          that you were once my friend

someday in the future

if you should come around

I will keep all I remember

ten feet underground

and you won't affect me

I will not run in fear

I will only tell myself

that you are not here

you don't even deserve

a trace of memory

you can't bother me

just another day

it's the day after my birthday

now it's just another day

a day with no good wishes

another day to waste away

but to me today is special

it's always darkest before dawn

today is living proof

that life continues to move on

today I will return

to eating normally

no more cake and corn chips

it's fruit and vegetables for me

no more time for sleeping late

there's work to be done

there's always so much to do

before the setting sun

it will be another year

until I can celebrate again

until all the days align

and another year comes in

364 days

to do just what I should

all for one special day

when I get to feeling good

it's the day after my birthday

and that's all right with me

it's just another day

with so much left to see

with so many happy moments

so much shuck 'n jive

it's the day after my birthday

I am glad to be alive