but I will 2

I've been walking backwards
retracing my steps
trying to find the way
back to myself
I've been lost so long
I wouldn't place no bets
I ain't no poster child
for mental health

          oh, give me faith
          give me hope
          I'm sliding down
          some slippery slope
          I keep saying yes
          while my heart cries nope
          not now
          hold on still
          I don't know how
          but I will

I've been crying buckets and
barrels of tears
I'm as dehydrated 
as can be
I've been crossing my fingers
and facing my fears
taking the long way around
to destiny

          oh, give me hope
          give me dreams
          tell me the future
          ain't as bleak
          as it seems
          maybe I don't have 
          the means right now
          for climbing up this hill
          I don't know how
          but I will
          I don't know how
          but I will