I should have realized

I should have realized

that you didn't really love me

but now I know

I was only a fool

I should have realized

you put yourself above me

that you pushed and shoved me

that you were cruel

but what did I do?

I kept on believing

that you were the one

now I look at the damage

that's been done

I should have known

you'd eventually leave me

all of your promises

have turned into dust

I should have known

that you would deceive me

that you wouldn't be

anyone I could trust

but what did I do?

I took all I knew

and threw it out of my mind

now I need to leave

your memory behind

          somewhere in my mind

          I'm witnessing a clearing

          I look around for you

          and you're disappearing

I should have realized

that you would desert me

that when I turned around

you wouldn't be there

i hope you enjoyed

the way that you hurt me

it look me by surprise

I wasn't prepared

but what did I do?

I stood there and watched you

holier than thou

I didn't know anything then

I know a whole lot more now

I should have realized

that you didn't love me