darkness in my soul

dark gray clouds are coming in

along with a whistling wind

it's going to rain again

but I like it that way

I hope that you won't find me rude

or think that I've been misconstrued

but the rain and cold fit my mood

on this dark and dreary day

          I don't want to see the sun

          shining down on everyone

          I just want to have control

          over this darkness in my soul

sadness always comes to me

when I think I'm finally free

of pain and all its misery

that's when I see it returning

it's biology, simple and plain

I'm missing something in my brain

everything turns out the same

despite lessons I am learning

          I don't need to count the stars

          to find that I am worlds afar

          loneliness swallows me whole

          with this darkness in my soul

this morning I will start again

I'll take a pill, some Klonopin

and see if the light will let me in

but I know it's all in vain

the voices in my head stand trial

fighting off my weak denial

if I can, I know that I will

try to fight it off again

          I don't have to read the signs

          I know I'm fucked up in my mind

          this living sure does take a toll

          inside the darkness in my soul