now I am transparent (rewrite 1)

my life has been like everybody else's

hard and rough and tough to explain

sometimes I give, sometimes I'm selfish

sometimes I feel as constant as the rain

I have tried to stand my ground

but I can't hide the sorrow I've found

           and now I am transparent

           anyone can read my thoughts

           you can look right at my face

           and see what I am not

           now I am transparent

           my insides are outside

           for the whole wide world to see

           there's something fierce inside of me

           now I am transparent

like cellophane over something new

you can see just how I feel 

I'm someone you can see right through

I wear my smile like a shield

I have tried to be somebody else

now I'm afraid to be myself

          and now I am transparent

          now you see just who I am

          I try to hide myself inside

          but I don't think I can

          now I am transparent

          I'm lost and so alone

          I don't know what I can do

          to find a way for breaking through

          now I am transparent

maybe someday I'll do the best I can

maybe someday I'll finally understand

          but now I am transparent

          and I'm so disgraced

          everything I feel 

          always shows within my face

          now I am transparent

          like the air that's in the sky

          I'm as clear as I can be

          there's nothing that's protecting me

          now I am transparent