shake you off

like sand between my toes
like dirt upon my hands
I try to shake you off
but I don't know if I can
if I can shake you off 
then I can let you go
but then I will have to stand alone

but I am good at solitude
and I know that I will live
but I won't forget
and I never will forgive
but if I can forgive you
and finally say farewell
maybe I can forgive myself