my suicide plan

I would walk 
in the woods,
with my walker, 
the best I could
late at night 
when there wouldn't be no one
I would take
a look around
put my backpack
on the ground
open it up
and take out my brand-new gun
and I'd put it
to my head
pull the trigger
there, I'm dead
a death too gruesome to mention
maybe heaven
maybe hell
I don't know
who could tell?
but finally I'd get some attention