saving my own life

good morning
I can't go to work today
there's something wrong with my mind
if I came in
I'd just be a jerk today
and the projects would all fall behind
lately
I'm hearing voices in my head
and they're cutting me down to size
they're saying
that I'm almost good as dead
so I'm saving my own life

I was driving
to the nearest liquor store
to get the medicine I crave
there was this new bottle
that I couldn't ignore
and I thought I'd be brave
so I bought it
took it home to pour
took a sip and I damn near died
it was water
I'd never had it before
but I guess I'm saving my own life