In which our hero, who was born to write songs, tries to figure out his life with help from the interviewer.
Thursday, September 12, 2019
Broken record
It's a beautiful day outside. I just got back from my walk, where I had a couple of nice encounters with people from the neighborhood. So why am I always so depressed?
It's called a "major depressive disorder." That's what you have, farmboy. That's one of your two major diagnosis's.
That's right. I forgot. And the other one was...
PTSD.
Yeah, PTSD. I never quite understood that one. I was never in the military, never saw combat. I was never sexually assaulted. What the fuck am I going to have PTSD over?
You'd be surprised.
That tells me a fuckin' lot.
The mind's a tricky thing, farmboy.
I just get tired of fuckin' trying sometimes. I'm so frustrated. I'm so angry. I'm a fuckin' broken record just going over and over the same things.
On the other hand, you did go out for a walk today. In the sunshine. You talked to neighbors. I imagine you probably smiled and were friendly. What's up for the rest of the day?
I'm going to see my therapist in a little while, then I'll buy a burrito for this evening's dinner. It's the culinary highlight of my week.
I'm glad that you're going to see your therapist.
I am too. I hope I can get something out of it rather than just complaining like I always do. I really need help.
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